ran into him again today

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Registered: 12-31-2009
ran into him again today
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Wed, 01-13-2010 - 10:17pm
I thought I was doing pretty well. Yesterday XAP and I were in our first meeting together at work since LC started. I did well in the meeting. I don't think I gave any signs that I am struggling. But today, for whatever reason we passed in the hall. He said hi; I smiled and said hi back and was immediately stricken with tears. He did not see them. I went straight to my office to get myself together. That was completely unexpected since I thought I was doing so well. I didn't break LC or anything like that, but I am upset with myself that I had that breakdown. I hope I don't have any nightmares about him tonight. He was in my dreams a couple of nights ago and that also bothers me. Will I ever stop thinking about him?
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Registered: 08-18-2008
Wed, 01-13-2010 - 11:54pm

Hi CSN,


You are still raw and those darn feelings are gonna sneak up on you when you least expect them.

Whether you think you can or you think you can't you are probably right. A parrot can repeat what it has learned but the mark of true intelligence is applying what is learned.

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Registered: 12-07-2009
Thu, 01-14-2010 - 7:57am

CSN,

It's normal, honey, to feel sadness so early out, especially when they are civil towards us. When they are nasty it makes it so much easier to stay mad. ;-) You handled it well and this will probably happen a few times more, but as you get further away, those tears will eventually dry up.

((Hugs))

~ Iddy~

   ~Iddy~ 


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Registered: 12-31-2009
Thu, 01-14-2010 - 9:13am

E1, I enjoy your comments so much!

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Registered: 12-31-2009
Thu, 01-14-2010 - 9:25am

Iddy,


I don't think I have personally thanked you for all the support you have given me since I began posting a couple of weeks ago.

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Registered: 07-24-2005
Thu, 01-14-2010 - 11:16pm

You could always write it all down in a journal or draft it out on the puter and store it in your draft file to edit.