Ran into xap last night
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Ran into xap last night
| Sun, 04-18-2010 - 10:42am |
So the city I live in put on a function for all of the local merchants who want to participate to promote their product. It was a blast, with live bands and beer flowing. I was there with all of my wonderful coworkers (H was working late). It was wall to wall people and in this sea of faces I see his. He spots me and comes over to give me a hug. I was quite cold, giving a half smile and not engaging in any conversation. I could tell he was embarrassed by my response. Honestly though, I felt absolutely nothing. Funny thing is, I remember him being a lot better looking. He continued to stay around the area I was in. He would flirt with all the beautiful women (he's single), and I could see out of the corner of my eye that he was looking to see if I was watching. I didn't feel any jealousy or anything. It was actually a blessing running into him because I can honestly say now that I feel "indifference". Wow, only 3 months NC and I can say that! So there is hope ladies, because I never thought I would get there and here I am!!!

Amazing!
"I can be changed by what happens to me. But I refuse to be reduced by it."
— Maya Angelou
I'm so surprised your xAP didn't have more shame than to treat you so casually. Cad. Oh, well -- he's not your problem anymore. Whoop! Indifference... ah, the goal of goals! Congratulations for reaching it!
xo
Dee
Congrats, AAI.
I could've written this post.
AAI -
Wow! This post is inspirational to me.
AAI,
I'm sorry this is the first time I read your thread but to be honest, I was afraid to. I just wasn't up for dishing out more tough love this last weekend. But....what a pleasant surprise to read this:
<<< It was actually a blessing running into him because I can honestly say now that I feel "indifference".>>
This is MAJOR! Isn't it the best of the best to NOT feel anything? To realize they are JAM and that they no longer have any power over your emotions? What a gift, AAI, and whatever you are doing to have gotten here so quickly, Keep It Up! ;-)
I'm doing the Happy Dance!
((Hugs))
~Iddy~