Random angry thoughts are getting me through today
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|Tue, 08-07-2012 - 6:22pm|
I started to make a list of all the idiotic, callous, mean spirited, self centered things he said and did over the years. It's helping me put a different spin on this. I mean, he lied about dating the woman that became his second wife for YEARS to me and I always knew it was a lie. He sent me a flippin text message to let me know he had married her. What kind of heartless person does that?! And then when wife #2 found out about us through phone records, etc. he had the nerve to ask me to cover for him. Which I did! I know he would never have done that for me.
He acted like a child so many times, just throwing temper tantrums and then never once in all the years we were together did he ever apologize. Just told me to get over it. He belittled me to make himself feel better. Always told me he could find better than me. I was nothing special. He didn't care about me.
He demanded my full attention at all times and never gave me the same. He would say or write whatever he wanted to get his way, no matter how hurtful it was to me. I DO MATTER! (That's one that really hurt, when he said I never mattered to him)
And yelling at me when I would cry? That's just plain mean.
So, I'm on the angry side right now. Probably not the best in the long run but it's working for today.