Ready for my wings, iddy!
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| Mon, 07-19-2010 - 6:12pm |
Hello All,
I haven't been to the board for a few days. I needed some time to sort through some things, try to figure out just WHY I can't seem to let go of my fantasy.
I'm doing so much better today. I spent a lot of time with my daughter of the weekend, and, as she is getting ready for her senior year in high school, I have re-dedicated myself as a mother. I want to be the best mom that I can be, and I can't do that if I let the fog of the fantasy continue to hang over my head.
I think of how much time I missed with my kids because I was so wrapped up in the A, in xAP. It makes me sick to think about it now. There were times I hardly paid attention to what they were saying because I was daydreaming about the A. Times at their sporting events where I missed their accomplishments because I was busy texting with xAP. I never want my kids to think that I'm not 100% focused on being their mom.
I'm a TWEENER! I'm feeling stronger every day! Today is my step son's birthday and I am throwing a small party for him tonight. H is home and things are going really well.
Love to you all,
Angel

Angel
CONGRATULATIONS!!
I can so relate to your comment about missing things in your childrens lives because you were so wrapped up in xAP...and the texting.
Dear Angel (It's time to drop the fallen part),
It is my honor to bestow upon you this
~Iddy~
CONGRATS Angel!
Hooray for you, Angel!
FA,
Congrats!
How awesome! Love to see posters earning their wings!
Much love and big hugs,
E1
Whether you think you can or you think you can’t you are probably right.
Whether you think you can or you think you can't you are probably right. A parrot can repeat what it has learned but the mark of true intelligence is applying what is learned.
Dear FA,
CONGRATULATIONS!!!
Babysteps
...even if it is all I can do, I can take one babystep.
NC/LC since May 21, 2010
Yay Angel! Welcome to tweenerville. It's been sunny here for almost 3 months in a row for me. I am so glad to have your company. Pull up a bar stool and have a seat. There are several of us still hanging around.
Here's what I will tell you- getting to day 90 seemed to take an eternity, but once I had those wings, time literally started to fly. Now, here I sit 1 week from the 6 month mark and I can't believe how quickly this second 90 days has gone. So hang on tight, Angel, you are about to start healing exponentially everyday.
Hugs,
NC/LC since January 28, 2010
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NC/LC since January 28, 2010
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I can't thank you all enough for your support. It's amazing how much stronger I am feeling every day. I hate that I do still think about xAP on a daily basis, but it's more of an annoyance now. I am definitely on the road to recovery.
Love to you all,
Angel
Congrats!!
Luvin
Yo Soy EL Capitan de Mi Vida
Fallen Angel you are No longer (-:
You have those wings now and time to start soaring!
Ya, I still think about him too much too, but wow - it is so not like those early days.
Now - I reflect back and am awash with feelings more like sadness: for the choices we made and the devastating consequences they had on all around us.
And yet, here you are! Another amazing, strong & dedicated Ender who just earned her wings.
So happy for you, for us all and even those who are just new to this board, hurting like h*ll ... because it gets so much better & brighter when you work to blow that fog away!
TU.
LC/NC since April 14, 2010
"I can be changed by what happens to me. But I refuse to be reduced by it."
— Maya Angelou
"I can be changed by what happens to me. But I refuse to be reduced by it."
— Maya Angelou