Really didn't enjoy xmas this year
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Really didn't enjoy xmas this year
| Sun, 12-26-2010 - 12:33am |
I guess I'm not supposed to enjoy it after ending an A right?
Aside from last year at this time when I was going through my divorce, this has to be the toughest holiday season emotionally in over a decade. These last few days have been tortuous with trying to steer thoughts away from xAP and what he is up to, how he is loving his wife, etc.

just try to channel
Yo Soy EL Capitan de Mi Vida
Man, I feel ya.
Sunshine,
Keep the faith. As Dee said, each day out of the A takes you further away from the pain and suffering. It really, really does. Unfortunately, there's just no easy route around the struggle and hurt. You just have to work through it one moment at a time. Have faith. Our vets wouldn't lie to us. They wouldn't be here, investing in us newbies, if they didn't know the truth.
Hugs,
~alwayst2
Sunshine-
I'm so sorry you are down. I think the holidays are an 'emotion intensifier'.
You will feel free & SAFE.
Stay the course.
TU.
(((((((Sunshine))))))
YOULL MAKE IT!!!
I hope youre feeling better today - but if NOT...OMG!!! I WOULD LOVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVEEEE love love! To see the art you create surrounding these feelings!!!!
If you do create - can you take a pic and post it??!?!
My gosh - I wish I had that talent. Maybe I should just throw the color that represents my heart on a canvas right now - BLACK. :)
In all seriousness darling, Please USE YOUR TALENTS that God has given you to express your pain - As well as PLACE THAT FOCUS OF LOVE on your little girl. She needs her Mommy's full devotion and love. :)
Lifting you up to Cloud 9, Sunshine!!!!!!
xo,
Michelle