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Really having a hard time today -
| Thu, 10-07-2010 - 1:00pm |
Hello -
I'm not sure what is going on with me today but I'm having a really
| Thu, 10-07-2010 - 1:00pm |
Hello -
I'm not sure what is going on with me today but I'm having a really
(((CG4S)))
I'm sorry you are having a tough day today. All I can is to just ride it out, honey. Don't do anything you will later regret. The stars must be misaligned in your chart today...hey, it happens. October is a tough month for me all around. A lot of family deaths happened in this month along with birthdays of people now deceased. It pisses me off because weather-wise it's so beautiful around here....right now it's in the high 60's and sunny.
It was also in Oct. when Xmm ended our A for the first time and shattered my heart to pieces. I never really got over that and it overshadowed the relationship when we got back together again. To this day I wish I had just stuck to that ending, but I don't believe there even was an EAS back them. So, with that said, be grateful you have a place to come to and vent your feelings while getting some hugs along with it.
There are always going to be bad days as long as we still work with them. For the most part I am just fine, but I'd be lying if I said things were back to the way they were before the A. They will never be like that again and it's just something you/I will have to live with. The only other option is to find another job.
Do whatever you can to avoid going by his office, and remember, it's ok to feel sad once in a while. Tomorrow is another day and hopefully it will be a "My give a damn is broken" day. :womanvery-happy:
(((Hugs)))
Hang in there crazy girl. As Iddy said, ride it out. It's all we can do. It's been a hard week for me as well, for no particular reason either. Sometimes there is no tangible reason for our feelings. I feel like I'm playing whack-a-mole today with my thoughts. What seems to help more than anything is to constantly remind myself that the path I am on is MY choice. That I don't want XAP in my life anymore because the R was completely unacceptable.
Tomorrow is a new day :)
Bodhi
CG4S
As Iddy said, I am sorry to hear you having a bad day.
Thank you guys for encouraging me, I'm so thankful for this board. Use to I would just go on impulse and send him an email, boy have I learned my lesson(s)!
It is just so hard to see him, some days I just crave any interaction with him at all rather then deafening silence and today is one of those days. Tomorrow is a new day and I will be yet stronger and wiser and will have one more day of LC/NC under my belt.
I just want to go home, pig out, watch my shows cuddled up to a blanket, pillow and a heating pad all while eating chocolate.
Thanks again!
Hey
Im hearing you today. Some days just feel soooooo hard! I want the day to come where I dont think of him at all, or think back on it all with intense sadness :(
UGH
Iggyx
EXACTLY!
It's the worst when we can't figure out what is causing the bad feelings.
Thats it eactly Dee- our need to analyse things! I am reading a GREAT book on Buddhism at the moment and its al about learning to just accept! No questions, no concerns, because you cant change things anyway- just accept.
Its powerful- hard- but powerful!