Recap of the last 3 Months

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Registered: 10-14-2010
Recap of the last 3 Months
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Tue, 01-11-2011 - 8:21pm

Hi Everybody -

I know you've seen my FACE posted all up and down the timeline as a replier - and being a heavy weight poster in the healing library and finally, who can forget my MONTHLY melt downs when my Emotional Crap Hits the Fan.

Today, when I was out driving around my beautifully sunny city, It was the first time I began thinking and reflecting on HOW MUCH PROGRESS AND HOW MUCH WORK I've put in for 3 months STEADY.

Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart... Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens. I started looking inside and went NC October 15, 2010

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Tue, 01-11-2011 - 10:00pm

Oh Michelle...what can I say except that YOU ROCK! Your posts mean so much to me, a newbie, who's struggling with the exact same issues - not that JAM was abusive in any way - but you know what I mean.

When you read a post and find yourself going "Yes!" and nodding, you can be sure the writer has struck a chord, and your posts do just that.

I won't bother replying to all the points because my brain is still in night shift mode and I feel vaguely blonde...but believe me when I honestly and sincerely say that you are an inspiration to me.

Much love

LL

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Tue, 01-11-2011 - 11:07pm

Luvin
Yo Soy EL Capitan de Mi Vida
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Tue, 01-11-2011 - 11:17pm

AYE AYE EL CAPITAN!!!!!!!

I know....I know it will come. Im mustering up as much patience as I can.

Im chillin out! :) Im not ACTIVELY trying to work on indifference, cuz that involves jam....

Ill just actively work on me, till that one comes.

Im ok with "co-existing" with a little bit of hate when he surfaces and Ill take indifference when it comes. its so NOT about him. Ive got him down to a little little tiny box. :)

Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart... Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens. I started looking inside and went NC October 15, 2010
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Wed, 01-12-2011 - 1:40am
Michelle:) Your post is very insightful and I felt like I was walking along side you through your recap. You are an amazing woman who has stayed so very positive with so many life experiences that have altered your life. I admire your determination and spunky personality, you are worth it Michelle don't ever think otherwise:)
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Wed, 01-12-2011 - 6:08am

Michelle

WOW! What an amazing post from an even more AMZAING women! You are so eloquent in your prose and thoughts. Every word has been in my head and heart. I too am not at indifference. God brought you into our lives for a reason and I'm for one am so glad he did.

You will get there Sweetheart. You are too special !

Have a wonderful day

Awakening

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Wed, 01-12-2011 - 6:32am

Oh, Michelle, what can I say? You've been my partner in passion and impatience since

Oct. 12, 2010 -- began my personal search and rescue mission.
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Wed, 01-12-2011 - 12:24pm

Michelle, your post is filled with insight and

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Wed, 01-12-2011 - 1:41pm

THANKS MOM!!!!

Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart... Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens. I started looking inside and went NC October 15, 2010
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Wed, 01-12-2011 - 1:48pm

Ohhhhh ((((((ALWAYS)))))))))

I know!!! Ive 'always'

Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart... Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens. I started looking inside and went NC October 15, 2010
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Wed, 01-12-2011 - 1:53pm
awwwww Awakening, thank you!!!!! Im so humbled and sooo reluctant to accept that I am amazing, but IM WORKIN ON IT!!!

Isn't it so odd, that we all felt so isolated and alone in our pain - but once we're out and healing and talking about it - WE ALL HAVE THE SAME WORDS IN OUR HEAD AND HEART??? That's why I posted this recap. I havent been able to VOCALIZE the whole story from start to finish yet - It kept feeling like the "finish" was still defining itself. Now, I feel like The affair story is FINISHED.

My new START is about ME living my life HEALTHILY.

Im glad to be on this journey with you as well Awakening!!!
Im so proud of all of us! Because I KNOW HOW DIFFICULT AND GRIPPING IT IS.

Have a fabulous Wednesday!!!
Michelle
Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart... Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens. I started looking inside and went NC October 15, 2010

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