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Redemption
| Fri, 02-26-2010 - 8:10pm |
What is is going to take to feel 'clean' again? I'm beginning to really appreciate the concept of Christian redemption for the first time in my life. I was reared a Christian and understood the concept, but I've never, ever felt the need for redemption quite like I do now and I am not 'feeling it'. I want to feel self-redeemed, universe-redeemed, maker-redeemed.... and I don't. Will I ever feel CLEAN again?
I don't need spiritual guidance. And I don't want to discuss Christianity. I know I am forgiven; it's just that I wonder if I'll ever FEEL redeemed.
I'm a little low today.
Do you feel redeemed? Do you _want_ to feel redeemed? How did you get to the place where you didn't feel dirty anymore, if you did?
kisses,
Dee

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Rena,
Thank you so much! I feel great whenever anything I say resonates with someone. THAT makes me feel redeemed!!
I love your meditation. I think I will try that. Peaceful and healing. Wow. Good for you and lucky me that you suggested it!
Best on your journey, my friend.
Dee
And same to you Dee.
Oh Dee, you know what, you are at such a good place right now but you can't see it. You are at a place where you see that your behavior was so wrong and would hurt so many ppl. You are so much better off right now than when you were having the A and not really caring about who it might hurt. You are strong because you see the error in your ways and you stopped violating yourself, your H and your XAP's marriage. You just don't realize what a great spiritual path you are on right now. You should be so proud of yourself. Some ppl do this kind of thing forever never thinking about anyone else but themselves but you made a choice to live an honest and faithful life. The more you live a decent and honorable life the more you will feel good about yourself.
I am giving you as many cyber hugs that you can stand.
Ah!!!!! thank you so much. We're getting deep on the board today!
I need cyber hugs out the wazoo --- and cyber tissues, too. I'm a sniffling wreck today.
xoxox thank you for the love.
Dee
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Great post. I love your point about some people doing this kind of thing their entire life, not thinking of others. By ending an affair, we are making a choice to live an honest, real life "life".
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