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| Wed, 04-02-2003 - 6:05pm |
Anyway, when it all hit me, that I could have a new fresh start ahead of me, I kept saying to myself - what was I thinking? What have I been doing? How could I be sitting here thinking all my happiness was over, when really its my sadness and lies that really could be over. How could I have hurt so many people.
Then when I came to write this post - I did a search (as I read in one of the other posts) of my name. There were a few posts to me I had never read and some that I forgotten that were quite powerful. It all hit me like a ton of bricks. I feel so much guilt. I'm scared of being found out. Have people suspected? I'm sure my husband wonders what's happened to me. Why am I always checking my email, etc. Will people find out?
My god, its as though someone has given me a pair of glasses and I can see clearly. I am so sorry for what I have done. Somehow I feel I wouldn't have got to this point without the NC I've had recently from OM. It really allows you perspective.
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As for staying in your marriage, only you can determine what is best for you there. But you can't do it when you lean on OM to make you feel better rather than facing the issues - ALL OF THEM at home. I am praying for you. Let yourself continue to see the light and watch how much more relief you will feel.
Hugs to you.
GT