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| Wed, 02-02-2005 - 10:32pm |
Well I didnt think I'd find myself back here I was pretty set on facing my issues an going on but here I am again. And once again starting day one of NC. I tried 2 other times to walk away from MM and save our friend ship, then it seemed like all our mutual friends who knew about us began attacking him right down to my best friends mother slapping in the face one night. People I had no clue knew a thing about us were putting in there 2 cents an all seemed to deem him the bad guy. I found myself resenting them for that I was just as much to blame as he was I wanted to see him needed to see him, he is a very good friend. But tonight I had to make him decide where we stood we have been in such a grey area, I didnt know if we were friends with benefits or more an after a weekend out I was feeling guilty because I was flirting with an being flirted with by a very attractive guy, an he was there to see it.
Anyway he isnt much of a talkative person so getting him to do it is a chore. So after long lunch time conversation an him coming to my house "we" decided to call it quits, i make it to easy for him, if he has to face every day with out me to call an make it better then he has to face his true issues things I have known for a while , but tonight he had to face it an make the decision I didnt do it for him, I made him think an tell me what he thought about out situation.
So now how do I make it stick this time? This man is everything I want in a man, father, husband we have every thing in common an just make the other a better person. HOw do we walk away an move on ?

Krm-one
We all have been there on more than one occassion. It isn't an easy thing to do! It has been the most difficult process for me. I'm still trying to find my way out. I'm sending hugs to you!
SS