Rock Bottom

iVillage Member
Registered: 10-14-2010
Rock Bottom
26
Mon, 11-15-2010 - 12:19am

Alright, I finally have nothing to say.

Except I just hit rock bottom emotionally.

I cant stop crying.

I am going to do NOTHING to try to stop this pain - as it pours out of my soul.

Its over. Its REALLY over. Its JUST OVER.

Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart... Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens. I started looking inside and went NC October 15, 2010

Pages

iVillage Member
Registered: 10-17-2010
Mon, 11-15-2010 - 2:58pm

Awwwwwwwwwww Honey, big big ((((((((((HUGS)))))))))).

iVillage Member
Registered: 10-14-2010
Mon, 11-15-2010 - 3:13pm

((((((Renewal)))))

HOW CAN EVERYONE HERE BE SO DAMN SWEET & CARING!!!! I wish I'd had my affair with ALL OF YOU!!!

You just hugging me, telling me to get it out...and being gentle with me...is HUGE!!!!

I've never had so much support for FEELING in my life!!!

I am so humbled!

You know Renewal....You're so right...we keep these feelings at BAY. Our mind protects us - until apparently were READY & SAFE to let it go - with a $hit storm of emotion. Cuz I swear...I didnt think I'd go through this either. Until I started seeing the cracks in the damn on Friday - When you say YOU'VE YET TO FULLY ACCEPT IT yet...THAT'S EXACTLY!!! what took me to my knees.

Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart... Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens. I started looking inside and went NC October 15, 2010
iVillage Member
Registered: 10-14-2010
Mon, 11-15-2010 - 3:24pm

((((((MC)))))))))

You're just lovely coming here and reaching out to me - when I know you're going through your EMO stuff too.

Isn't it something how - were all SUCKED UP in our pain - yet we see someone else hurting...I feel this protective anger, like OH NO! MC is NOT going to feel alone! Not going to breakdown and feel that she's alone. :)

Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart... Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens. I started looking inside and went NC October 15, 2010
iVillage Member
Registered: 10-14-2010
Mon, 11-15-2010 - 3:27pm

((((Jen)))))),

Thank you! Im still open to receiving healing vibes! :)

The pain is subsiding. Thank God! It feels like being taken under by a big wave - and popping into calm waters for a minute. I KNOW other waves are coming. But Im paddling. :)

Thanks again for all your support & energy & grace.

Im here for you too!

Love,

Michelle

Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart... Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens. I started looking inside and went NC October 15, 2010
iVillage Member
Registered: 10-17-2010
Mon, 11-15-2010 - 6:35pm

I am not sure if I will ever feel that sever empty crying thing.

iVillage Member
Registered: 08-30-2010
Mon, 11-15-2010 - 7:01pm

Michelle....huge hugs!!!!!

Pages