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| Tue, 12-08-2009 - 9:27am |
To All: (Newbies, tweeners, vets, and lurkers)
I remember that Messenger used to do this every so often
| Tue, 12-08-2009 - 9:27am |
To All: (Newbies, tweeners, vets, and lurkers)
I remember that Messenger used to do this every so often
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I really identify with your situation. H also knows the details, and Mr. Perfect is a part of our lives. My biggest problem is that the A has not caused me anything but joy. There is pain only in ending it. H even understands why I went there, and that's even worse! One day at a time, then.
I suppose that I should finally add my story to fully join this board. It's not that I haven't been here so many times before. My first ending story was in May 2008 (here's a link: http://messageboards.ivillage.com/iv-rlending/?msg=24141.1)
My A had been going on for nearly 2 1/2 years with many attempts to go NC initiated by me, his W and him until this past October. Even though I had been sending weak signals that I wanted to again try NC, it was him that finally requested that we end our affair. Unfortunately, or fortunately depending on how you look at it, he did it in a manner that was hurtful to me and no matter how many times I explained it to him, he stubbornly refused to understand that the timing was inconsiderate at best. I never had an argument over the decision and acknowledged that it was good that we make a final cut. I think the way he did it only made me wonder about what I believed to be true regarding our "relationship."
So far, we haven't spoken or texted since early November and there have been few email exchanges. (I'll admit to sending more but they were never answered.) Today is two weeks total NC on my part and I am certain that we will never see each other again. I've struggled with the highs and lows of ending and I think one of the most difficult parts of ending is becoming aware of your own reality and now having to deal with it instead of escape into a fantasy relationship.
ND4MLK
No memory of having starred atones for later disregard, or keeps the end from being hard. - Robert Frost
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