Rose colored glasses

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Registered: 05-21-2003
Rose colored glasses
Mon, 01-03-2005 - 5:19pm

After 4 years I have finally taken off the rose colored glasses.

During my affair that is how I looked at everything, all rosy and great. If I had just taken of the glasses long enough I would of saw that it wasnt all that great, and I missed alot of red flags that were waving so boldly in front of my face. I dont regret the good times and the passion it put back into me. But the one thing that I do regret is I let my guard down and let someone in to my heart and soul. He knew my inner most thoughts and feelings, I told him everything because he promised me we would be together forever. I trusted him. But that is where I kept the glasses on, I should of known after 3 years of promises that he was never gonna leave his wife. And as good as our pretend life sounded it was never going to happen, and
I feel now that he knew that all along. So where do you turn when your best friend and lover decides he doent need you anymore??? your left with alot of unanswered questions and a torn heart and a shattered soul. I know that my anger will subside in time but when you give such a precious gift of your heart and soul it takes awhile to put it back together and move on. Especially when you know that they are already making goo-goo eyes at their new secretary. I am not putting total blame on him either, I was a willing participant and knew what I was getting into.

So if any of you are still on the fence about getting out of your A, if he hasnt committed to you completely and still wavers between leaving her and staying, odds are he will more than likely stay with her. As one of the people on here calls them cake eating fence sitters :) (I think that sums it up) If you feel it in your gut then follow that with your head, your gut usually knows!!

Good luck to you all On the go chick

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