Sad and rainy day

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Registered: 10-05-2004
Sad and rainy day
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Thu, 10-28-2004 - 11:16am
Another one of those days. Had a small arguement w/ H last night. Nothing major, but of course, it made me start to think about XOM. Luckily I had the self restraint NOT to call him. But I woke up this morning still irritated...and still thinking about XOM. On top of that, it is a cold, rainy day out which just makes it worse. I love the rain - something very romantic about it...ugh. And to make it all just a little bit worse - XOM's last day at work is tomorrow. He will no longer be working a few miles away from me (which realistically, I know is good, because it's what made our A so easy). It's been in the back of my mind since I found out he was changing jobs - wondering if he would call or email and want to meet for lunch or coffee one last time. YES, I know I SHOULDN'T want too....but I do. He probably won't call - and I just have to stay strong and not call him for the next two days until that feeling passes...

Just feeling really sad today and needed to vent...

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Registered: 04-13-2004
Thu, 10-28-2004 - 11:22am
Hey Diva,

I was feeling like stressed yesterday and all week. So I emailed him. Big mistake. I know its hard to control those urges. But after 5 weeks of NC it is amazing how quickly we can slip into the same old ways. I didnt let the feeling pass. I just reacted to it. Which I normally do but had been really good at controlling. Dont do it honey. Take it from me who really screwed up!

Go run around in the rain. Take a walk.

Not much good today with advice. But wanted to send you a (((((((HUG))))))))

xo!

Dipss

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Registered: 09-03-2004
Thu, 10-28-2004 - 11:45am
Diva just try to take it easy we will all go up and down on this emotional rollercoaster but as long as u stay strong and don't make any calls or contact you will always be ahead of the game!!
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Registered: 10-07-2004
Thu, 10-28-2004 - 12:30pm
I know how difficult it is not to pick up the phone. I struggle with it every minute of the day. I may have cheated by calling her office after hours to hear her voice on her voicemail system. When I have those urges I try to distract myself or call a friend to talk. Today I'm online here to avoid sending and e-mail messages.