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| Tue, 12-07-2004 - 1:00pm |
Hi – I’m lurker from the other board but recently my situation became clear I needed to end my A altogether with OW. At the recommendation of a friend, I came here. In short, I just sent OW an e-mail explaining that I just can’t go on as just friends and that I’m done. I told her I loved her but I can’t see her anymore. It hurts too much. The only thing that has been more difficult in my life thus far was the day I left my family b/c there was no hope left for our M.
As most here probably know what this is like, I feel awful. My whole R with her has been rewinding in my head. All the dreams, the good thoughts, the happiness, the friendship, holding her, looking into her eyes - it's all there. I thought she was “the one,” but I had to let go. This sucks soooo bad. I miss her terribly already and I’m what, 3 hours into this? I’m thinking of a line from an Aerosmith song:
Tell me what it takes to let you go
Tell me how the pain's supposed to go
Tell me how it is that you can sleep in the night
Without thinking you lost everything that was good in your life to the toss of the dice?
Tell me what it takes to let you go.
Well here I am, and it’s long road ahead. Thanks for listening.
Bethstrong – thanks again for your story and your advice. They are much appreciated and it has helped realize that I am not alone.
GB2 – What more can I say? – you have helped me sooooo much. I am forever indebted in gratitude for all you have done for me.

Dear LV,
There's no point sugar coating it. You are going to hurt.
True and hurtpup,
Thanks for your responses. I think I went through the whole process and back again yesterday! However, last night mixed in with all the hurt, anger and you name it, there was a glimpse of peace and it felt great. Didn't last long, but it was there and I know as time goes by, that can only get better. I agree, of all the pain and frustration this has caused me, I have no regrets either.
Jazzdiva
SCU,
I think Posie is the one to thank. Anytime someone posts a good article I immediatley save it to my favorite places on AOL. I have a stack of them now ;) Anyway, someone once asked on here what were the stages of grief, and WHALA, in flew Posie with her "BTDT sparkling red cape on" and offered assistance.
Hugs to YOU and POSIE,
~True~