A sad day

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Registered: 04-02-2003
A sad day
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Tue, 12-07-2004 - 1:00pm

Hi – I’m lurker from the other board but recently my situation became clear I needed to end my A altogether with OW. At the recommendation of a friend, I came here. In short, I just sent OW an e-mail explaining that I just can’t go on as just friends and that I’m done. I told her I loved her but I can’t see her anymore. It hurts too much. The only thing that has been more difficult in my life thus far was the day I left my family b/c there was no hope left for our M.

As most here probably know what this is like, I feel awful. My whole R with her has been rewinding in my head. All the dreams, the good thoughts, the happiness, the friendship, holding her, looking into her eyes - it's all there. I thought she was “the one,” but I had to let go. This sucks soooo bad. I miss her terribly already and I’m what, 3 hours into this? I’m thinking of a line from an Aerosmith song:

Tell me what it takes to let you go
Tell me how the pain's supposed to go
Tell me how it is that you can sleep in the night
Without thinking you lost everything that was good in your life to the toss of the dice?
Tell me what it takes to let you go.

Well here I am, and it’s long road ahead. Thanks for listening.

Bethstrong – thanks again for your story and your advice. They are much appreciated and it has helped realize that I am not alone.

GB2 – What more can I say? – you have helped me sooooo much. I am forever indebted in gratitude for all you have done for me.

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Registered: 11-01-2004
In reply to: lostvoyage
Tue, 12-07-2004 - 1:10pm
It's so much harder to let go when you still have so much love in your heart for that person. I know...as do most of us here. You sometimes question if the pain right now was worth having had the A in the first place. But I can honestly say, as much as it hurts right now, and as much as I am missing him as we speak, I still have no regrets. I had the chance to know what it feels like to truly be in-love with someone, and have them feeling the same way. Hang in there lost. Lots of hugs to ya...
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Registered: 05-02-2004
In reply to: lostvoyage
Tue, 12-07-2004 - 1:20pm

Dear LV,


There's no point sugar coating it. You are going to hurt.

 

 

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Registered: 04-02-2003
In reply to: lostvoyage
Wed, 12-08-2004 - 7:16am

True and hurtpup,

Thanks for your responses. I think I went through the whole process and back again yesterday! However, last night mixed in with all the hurt, anger and you name it, there was a glimpse of peace and it felt great. Didn't last long, but it was there and I know as time goes by, that can only get better. I agree, of all the pain and frustration this has caused me, I have no regrets either.

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Registered: 04-02-2003
In reply to: lostvoyage
Wed, 12-08-2004 - 8:36am
what a great article. thanks for posting that.

Jazzdiva

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Registered: 05-02-2004
In reply to: lostvoyage
Wed, 12-08-2004 - 9:57am

SCU,

I think Posie is the one to thank. Anytime someone posts a good article I immediatley save it to my favorite places on AOL. I have a stack of them now ;) Anyway, someone once asked on here what were the stages of grief, and WHALA, in flew Posie with her "BTDT sparkling red cape on" and offered assistance.

Hugs to YOU and POSIE,

~True~