Sadness at an ending
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| Thu, 10-14-2004 - 12:55pm |
I have posted on the A message Board a few times about my A with a MM. I am married as well and have been very unhappy for the duration of my marriage- 4 years. Recently, My DH went through intensive therapy and has become a different person. He is wonderful now, better than the man I married. He has apologized for ignoring me for 4 years and has been working really hard to be a good husband and father.
Oh yeah- I am in love with my MM. I have been for 2 years and I believe he is my soulmate. But he is never going to leave his wife (anytime soon) and I have found new life in my marriage. So I said goodbye to MM. I had to make a choice because MM is far away and our trips have been hard to plan. Either his W planned some family thing or my H had to work. It was killing us and making us unhappy. And I chose to concentrate on my family and give it a shot.
So why am I so sad? I told MM that one day I may be back to find him and he said, "I will always be here for you". I know my heart will always ache for him. I know, as well, that we can't ever be "just friends".
I can only pray that I have made the right decision.

You can do it!! I know it is hard.. It has been almost 3 months NC with MM for me. The other day I almost gave in when I was having a bad day. I wrote the email and saved it as
a draft then came over here to read and regroup. I went back today and deleted the message. Fortunately for me my MM is far away so I dont have to worry about running into him. We are all here for you!
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