she ended it, im so depress :(

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Registered: 03-13-2004
she ended it, im so depress :(
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Mon, 02-07-2005 - 11:02am

hi everyone,

i been in so many boards( affair, affair supprt) and now my personal life has gone full circle, last nite OW called me to end our affair

she never gave me the exact reason but she told me she wants to let me go so i can move on with my life, she also told me she is giving the father of her daughter another chance

they live together in the same house, i work with her, im so devastated and depress, i called in sick from work today, i dont want to see her, i feel like i lost everything in my life

she is all i have, im so alone and lonely, my life is a mess, i dont know what to do anymore

pls help, i want the pain to go away, i need to let go of her, my heart still lings for her but i know it cant be, i dont know if she is telling me the truth about her reasons but i wont realy know, worst is i work with her , its already hard seeing her there at work but now that she ended it im realy not well anymore

Free, r u there ?, i cant do it anymore, im so tired of living my life

max

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Registered: 01-06-2005
Mon, 02-14-2005 - 7:45am

Hey All -
So its 7:30 AM EST time and I am trying to go on day 3 of NC. The past two days were hard but easier than I suspect today will be because it is a work day (and we are in the same office). My window overlooks the parking lot and I am almost tempted to close the blinds just so I dont look out to see when/if he comes in......but I will be stronger than that and enjoy the bright sunlight. Why should he take that away from me too? right?

Have a good day Max and everyone else.
Erin

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Registered: 03-13-2004
Mon, 02-14-2005 - 9:31am

6:30 am here on the west coast, i just woke up, im shaking, maybe coz its cold but my mouth is dry, i hate her for doing this to me, i did sleep for about 6 hrs, the most i had in the last 8 days

im going to work later

max

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Registered: 03-13-2004
Mon, 02-14-2005 - 12:33pm

this is the worst day so far

sure enough i got to work and she stepped in the same elevator as i was, what bad luck, at least there was some other person there

she said hi and sked me how was my weekend, i said its was fine

i wanted to yell at her, i dont know why

max

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