Should I return his rosary?

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Registered: 10-10-2004
Should I return his rosary?
Wed, 01-12-2005 - 12:37pm

xMM has been contacting me (its been 15 months since the A ended) He is miserable, sad, still loves me etc (but is not leaving his W). But in his last vm he asked me to mail him back his rosary. I recently was able to take it off my bed post and put it away in a box. I had tried to give it back to him many times but he always returned it to me. I thought that I would always have it. But I guess if he wants it back now, I should give it back right?

Also, instead of responding to his vm I called the ng(new guy)I'm dating. He is really a good person and treats me like gold. We haven't even kissed yet because I want to take it really slow. But ng is so positive and happy and being in an above board relationship makes me happy. When I heard xMM voice so sad and unhappy I realized that if I spoke to him he would drag me back down to that sad and unhappy place and I don't want to go there anymore. I am barely out of it.

Also, I have been thinking of xMM alot and loving him even though I won't go there and I wonder if he feels it and thats why he contacts me or if he feels me moving on with the ng and thats why. I just wanted to let the new people know that even though I still love him and miss him the pain has subsided so much and I have happy moments without him. I realize that being with him would be unhappy---so why go there?

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