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sick and confused
| Wed, 10-14-2009 - 8:41am |
I've read the posts and I'm sick to death. I can't sleep, eat, or go through with my day. I've lost my best friend, the person most in sync with me ever. He has young children to think of. He is protecting them. I guess I do to. Right now I'm safe. Nobody knows on my end but his W does. I've tried for years to work on my marriage. We are so different and he always makes me feel bad for who I am. I've begged him for us to get help but he refuses. I just wanted to be loved for who I was and in that search I found the absolutely perfect guy. I know it in my heart. If my marriage end, maybe I can be happy cause maybe I'll be free to find someone who IS available. But right now I can't see that. I can't think straight. I don't know how to make this emptiness go away. Help.

Hi Jocelyn,
Welcome!
I'm sorry you are hurting. Many of us can relate to where your at right now emotionally.
Stay here and continue to read. Have you scrolled down the main EAS page to the "Healing Library"? It's a great place to read.
You are still thick in the A fog. If your H won't go to MC or do what is
Whether you think you can or you think you can't you are probably right. A parrot can repeat what it has learned but the mark of true intelligence is applying what is learned.
Good morning J.
I know that this pain is raw and unbearbale right now, BUT the good news is you've found a place where you can post, read and get support.
You really need to just relax and take care of yourself right now and not make any major life decisions until you have had some time to heal and get over the A.
No good decisions can be made in the place where you are at.
READ READ READ....
Saying to myself how lucky I am that at least for now my H knows nothing and I can start over.
The only way to start over...
This is part of the thread I talked about in my last post....
I posted back....
Best of luck to you.
L
I think you need time my friend....