Small steps...
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| Tue, 01-25-2011 - 5:16am |
Well I read a few great posts where some EASers have resisted temptation, or had an enlightened moment so I felt compelled to share my little 'win' this week. Its really little- so lower your expectations now guys :)
My exAP is European- I wont say which country though (just in case). His accent and European suaveness was abig trigger for my attraction to him and I associae all things from that country with him, Since our A started I have found it hard not to moon or go mushy when I heard anyone with that accent, or saw pictures from that country etc. Of course since the fog lifted and I ended the A- I have HATED anything to do with that country and even avoided my own snapshots etc from a holiday there pre-A days!
But this week I watched a movie from that country and was immersed in the subtitles. I got half way in before it even dawned on me that it was from exAP's homeland and the were speaking a language that exAP speaks. It sounds like a small thing but it made me sooooo happy!
Isnt it pathetic that you have to sink so low before a glimmer of the top of the gutter is enough to make you smile :) But I am laying in the gutter, looking up, and step by step Im getting out :)
There- that was my small step....
Iggy x

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That is a super-duper great share!
DO NOT minimize this success! Seriously, that was a very very big trigger for you ... and look - you faced it and were A-OK! Better than that ... you experienced a growth spurt in your healing, and the rewards will be long lasting.
Much Love,
TU.
Oh, Iggy!! This is a big achievement, one that you are rightfully proud of and so rightly deserve to be recognized for. So a big YAY for that moment of indifference!!!
BTW, you are NOT in the gutter, sweet lady. I believe this breakthrough just propelled you out of the gutter and onto the sidewalk. So you're still covered in a little gutter sludge....who cares? It'll rinse off. :smileyvery-happy:
Hugs,
~alwayst2
Way to go Iggy!!
This is a very big "baby step".
Wow guys- you are so amazingly supportive! Thank you SO much.
Iggy x
I am late chiming in but I too want to say that I think this was a wonderful "small" step and one you should be very proud of....and know that I am too!
I know pulling yourself out of this was not easy...and I saw you struggle so much, and continue to get pulled back in over and over.
I am glad to see you back here and posting again...I hope that everything is going well and that you have finally gone completely NC. I remember you were great at counting for a while...then you just stopped, I am sure because of a rest. But I know you have been around long enough to know that you will get through all of this pain...one small step at a time!
much love to you my friend.
peace&light
Foggy
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