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So close but so far
| Thu, 04-07-2011 - 6:43pm |
So I pieced together that BlueRoses is gone. I'm going to be honest here because I need everyone to help keep me on track: I do miss exAP, if he contacted me there is a chance I'd go back into the A only because now, at almost a month out, the anxiety I remember from the A was hard but not as hard as my hardest moments now. A small part of me is jealous of BlueRoses, she isn't hurting herself anymore (her family yes). I know I'm just having a weak moment because had to work with exAP today. I thought I was doing so much better that I actually greeted him this morning... His indifference hurt. I don't know, I'm doing better but not as good as I thought I guess. I keep wanting to text him to see if he'll talk but I know he won't, he's done with me. Unlike everyone else's concerns about "fishing" I know my exAP won't do that. Trying to hold on... Thanks for listening.

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That being said, some kids will still need counseling to learn how to handle that anger - any T worth their salt will keep things confidential.
(((Landslide)))
The pain you and your DD are in breaks my heart. I would suggest PMing TU and asking her about confidentiality when it comes to a minor's therapy records. Maybe she will chime in here later with some advice. I know as an adult, whatever you share with your therapist is private information, but I do not know about minors.
Thanks, Lolly. That was very sage advice when you said let my actions do the 'talking'. We've always been close, but you're right.. I lost her trust after all the times I shut her off.. literally closed my bedroom door..
Thanks, Iddy. I will do just that and start a separate thread (as well as PM, TU). I'm heading out the door now to look at housing. My immediate goal, after going NC, is to take it a step further and get out of AP's neighborhood. Too many triggers and daily 'sightings' on the road messing with my head. Don't worry, though, I'll stay on board this time.
Kat.
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