So Devastated
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So Devastated
| Wed, 11-25-2009 - 6:46pm |
I've been on MAS and posted this there.
I'm going to break things off with AP for the 3rd time today.
Let me tell the latest. I'm trying not to cry right now. First off, This A has been draining me from the very beginning. I try to just enjoy our time but I cant. All the secrecy and lies and hiding and wanting more and wondering will he really leave makes me feel insane. It's always in the back of my mind, never leaving.
AP is good to me even though he in unemployed. He tries to help me when he can. He tell me he loves

Honey,
WOW! He has put you through the ringer. No matter the past. No matter what has happened with him and the OW. You can help yourself. Be sure when you say it is over and to contact you when he figures it out...back that up with it doesn't matter if he figures it out cause you are gone. Don't give him the crack in the window of opportunity because here comes Mr. Nice Guy...Mr. Smooth Talker that turns it all around and has you all giddy with smiles at the end. (hate that they do that)
YOU can change this for yourself and you WILL. The best thing to do is dive into the Healing Library about halfway down on the main EAS page. Soak it up and bathe in it. Write down quotes that speak to you. The other thing that is good is the MM Code Book...WOW! I felt like total poo after I read that but then laughed my head off the next week because it is very true.
We are here...be true to you!
Take care,
Hope
I'm sorry, caribu, that you are so devastated, but glad you came here.
Welcome to EAS.
He is a cake-eater.
Energy~
Amen...
Hi guys,
Thank you so much for responding. All I can say is I'm working on it. I will surely be back to update very soon.