So Down

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Registered: 08-24-2004
So Down
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Fri, 01-21-2005 - 6:10pm

I'm having a very down day. Last night I went to my therapist and really divulged all of the things that are stressing me out in my life - it was a rather endless list. The therapist decided to up my medication due to my current downward spiral. I feel so hopeless and empty. Nothing is going well in my life right now and I'm torturing myself with old regrets - particularly involving xMM. I've been reliving our time together (perhaps b/c it would've been a year soon). I've been especially remembering the hurtful things he's done and said. It cuts me so deep. I had to speak with him the other day (business reasons) and I guess that's not helping the situation either. I just don't want to be in pain anymore, I just want it to stop already. Thanks for listening.

Blue

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Registered: 12-12-2004
Fri, 01-21-2005 - 6:17pm

Blue-

I am sorry you are in so much pain. It sounds so familiar! Hopefully, the T increasing your dosage will help aleve some of the symptoms of your depression. Take care of yourself the best you can. Know you are not alone in your pain.

SS

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Registered: 01-04-2005
Fri, 01-21-2005 - 11:41pm

I am so sorry for your pain. I understand, as others. It just doesn't leave in a heartbeat as we wish it would. I am seeing a T right now. If you feel comfortable with the T (that is truly so important), then try to work on things to help you move on if you need to. I do understand as I am having a bad time myself. I called xom and he never called back. Silly me thinking I would feel good from that...

Hang in there.. (HUGS)

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Registered: 10-05-2004
Sat, 01-22-2005 - 8:20pm

Blue,

It seems to be that time in a lot of our lives. I've been going through alot of the same issues - reliving our time together, dealing w/ regrets and guilt, trying to wish the pain away...I broke NC w/ xOM just a few days ago. It did nothing but make me feel more pain & confusion. I wish I had some great words of wisdom, but I don't. Just know that you are not alone.

Diva