So far, so good. One week NC.

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Registered: 11-18-2004
So far, so good. One week NC.
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Mon, 11-29-2004 - 12:43pm
It's strange, but I've had 4 days off from work for the holiday, and I feel great. XMM and I work at the same place, and when I'm not here, I feel ALMOST like my old self again. These past 4 days have been great. I have barely thought of him, and when I do, I haven't been getting teary-eyed like before. Maybe I can do this!!! I have high hopes after this past weekend. Plus, my boyfriend and I seem to be doing a little better as well. We actually went out to dinner on Sat. night and it was fun. It might be because I'm not obsessing about HIM. Anyway, just wanted to say that it's been a full week with NO CONTACT at all. I am hoping to continue this. It does feel good to not be giving him any more power over my emotions, my brain, my psyche...everything.
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Registered: 11-27-2004
Mon, 11-29-2004 - 2:00pm

How did you do it? I can't even get through 10 minutes let alone a day without thinking of him it seems.

I am having a very rough time trying to break it off. I think I really need to completely stop emailing him and remove him from my distribution list but it is so freakin hard to let go. Why do I do this to myself?

Do you have any suggestions on where to start? How did you just DO IT?

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Registered: 11-18-2004
Mon, 11-29-2004 - 2:29pm

Bravo to you! I am the one who broke it off & wanted NC. He wants to meet me this afternoon & like a dumba#*...I am going! He says he needs "closure" and that he's ready to accept that it's over. I hope I am not be sucked in to a mental trap!

Again...congratulations to you! I think the only way I'll be able to win the NC battle is to move .... way far away!!!

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Registered: 11-18-2004
Mon, 11-29-2004 - 5:03pm
Well, it's only been a week, so who knows what might happen tomorrow.
Here's how I am trying to do this. With the last conversation we had, he made me feel like dirt. He made me feel small and worthless. He was condescending and rude to me and embarrassed me in front of another co-worker all because I was trying to be his "friend". So, everytime I think about wanting to talk to him or see him, I am trying to remember how horrible he made me feel in our last conversation. If anything, I feel that he owes me an apology. Until I get that apology, I want nothing to do with him. So...I figure that I will NEVER get that apology, so I will NEVER talk to him. Until he can treat me like a human being, I'm done with him. I'm not sacrificing myself or compromising myself any longer. Hope that helps you understand how I'm trying to get through this. It sucks, but I'm just done with him. All of a sudden, I hit rock bottom and couldn't feel any lower. So, the only way to go is up from here.