This is so hard...
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This is so hard...
| Sun, 04-04-2004 - 6:53pm |
Thank you both for writing me. I just feel so lost right now. I feel as if someone kicked me in my stomach, and the pain wont go away. I feel worse since my son is upset because he sees me upset, and Im TRYING really hard not to be sad around him. I dont have to worry about NO CONTACT because I know he wont call me. I also know I wont call him. He once said, if someone, anyone, said they dont want to be bothered with him, he would never attempt to contact them. So, I know I wont hear from him.
You know what Ive been thinking? He didnt even call back and ask why...nothing...I know I hung up on him after saying goodbye, but not even a call back.
Im in this fantasy world I guess. I better wake up, huh?
This is worse than I thought. I need words of encouragement. How do you all get through it?
Again, thanks...

How do you get through it , one day at a time, never forget that you did what you had to do for you and yours to have a real future.
There are no easy answers, Sorry, keep reminding yourself way you got out, what you really want in your future, perhaps someone who will love you totaly and be there for you when ever you need him.
Don't be to surprised if he does call after a few days of cooling off, Trust me when I tell you you do not want to have to end it a second time because it can leave a very bitter taste in your heart, you had the strength to end it once keep it that way.
Be patient with yourself, in a few weeks you will start to feel better, you will have your ups and downs but you will get better and you will start to rediscover YOU the one that did not sneak around and lie and do all that stuff.
Trust yourself you can do it, YOU ARE STRONGER THEN YOU THINK.
F
AND, you take to heart what mefreenow posted to you about deserving a true full love. But most importantly, you start putting yourself FIRST!
My situation is somewhat different from others here because after a long period of NO contact and much bitterness and pain, xMM and I eventually became good friends and maybe once enough time passes, you two can be civil and platonic friends. But you can't get there until in both your minds, hearts and souls, you're able to bury the affair.
Good luck to you!