This is so hard for me......
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| Tue, 05-04-2004 - 9:46am |
Ending this A is for me is about chaning the way I see myself. Feeling worthy of something good. That is what is so hard for me. Right now I'm so lonely. I thought that once I ended things with ex-MM, that my Prince Charming would fall from the sky. This is the longest I've been without having a man in my life in about 14 years.
I'm scared that I will never find that person for me. I guess I feel that I can't totally move past what I had with ex-MM until I'm in a new relationship. I keep wanting to just go back to ex-MM. All it would take is one phone call, and I would be right back where I started from. I have to keep reminding myself that ex-MM is not the one for me. Even if he D his W, that wouldn't change who he is. So, all I can do is wait this out. Sorry fro rampling, I'm just confused.
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But now that I have experienced that "connection" I am afraid that I will never experience it again with anyone!! Ahh!
>>I know I know - you can not look for the person, it is
>>something that just happens.
The way I have helped fate along in this area is too look for things to do where you will meet lots of new people (single) that have interests close to yours. If you read hang out in the book store cafe. Volunteer for something that your passionate about. Help out at blood drives etc.
Its not going to just happen. You have to look for it. But have fun doing it. Life is too short to be miserable.
Also its good to get into a mind set where you are ok with your self and being alone :)
-B
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