So how do you get past the cringe worthy things you did during the A?
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| Thu, 06-02-2011 - 7:12pm |
I am struggling to let go of the things I did during the A. The emotional neediness I displayed (the many texts and calls I made as he wasn't replying), the fact that he felt stalked on his fb when I mentioned I looked at his friend list and asked him who were his closest friends (I could only see his profile and friend list as we were not fb friends but boy was I jealous his friends got to be in his real life) and when he asked me how I could see his profile page as it is set to private so therefore won't show up on search, I told him I went to his mums page first and then went from there. I could see he was taken aback and that night he completely privatised his account so only the photo could be seen. Urggh I feel embarrased just writing it out here. There was so much more I did that is cringe worthy and I know these are the things that have made it easy for him to walk away when I ended it.
I know I shouldn't care that those are the things he will remember about me when he thinks of the A (if he ever does) but it does bog me down in the regrets and makes it hard for me to move on as I want so desperately for him to know that is not who I really am and my behaviour has been so out of character. (But no I won't break no contact just to prove something to him) So any advice please would be great.

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OMG...I have a list of past-now-cringe-worthy behavior you wouldn't believe...and still to this day, I cringe and shudder.
Ironically, breaking NC to prove to him that you're not pathetic... well, I don't even have to point that out, do I?
While I do not have any advise or ideas I can totally relate!
Clarity, do you remeber that one?
RTMO - As I was reading
Thankyou everyone. I actually have a huge smile on my face.
Yeah Dee, I am holding out lol. Those were the least embarrassing!
Clarity I would love to see that thread, so hopefully it can be found.
Have a nice night or day (depending on where you are), you have all made my day!
Thanks Katniss. I really would not have been able to do it without the support of the people on this forum. You and the other lovely ladies on here have truly been a Godsend. Thankyou all. x
I really hate this new format. It used to be so easy to look up past threads.
xo
Oh, I see it now.
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