So, I ended it for good... again.(long)
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| Sun, 02-29-2004 - 4:49am |
I flipped out last friday. I called him and said that this trip he's taking ( its next week) that i won't come to meet him. That one of us has to be adult and 3 weeks of no contact from him is ridiculious. I won't stand for it anymore. Then i found an appropriate card and emphasised what a great time I had with H, and wondered what the hell i was doing with OM, waiting, and could destroy everything for what?? Thanks for it all, i'm done-
Sent that off, but that night for some dumb reason called his house and talked to his W. I just wanted to talk to him, but think he's been ignoring my calls, so she answered and i asked something about him bringing something to my company when he comes here. She said he doesn't have it. Its already been delivered. She was so short, and rude that I am sure something is going on. Of course I DON*T KNOW anything. Has she found out? has she seen the phone bill, has he told, i don't know a thing, and its annoying. I feel so desperate and frustrated. I want to call him all the time. To see what he thinks of it all.
and next week.. he will be in town. How easy it will be to call. My H is also out of town, he had to go away anyway, but i coaxed him into leaving next weekend, and now i wil be just alone and a mess...
i think its for the best.. but if he fell outta it for me, wouldn't he have been a man and said something. Not just ignoring me for 3 weeks, hoping that what, i would go away.
i got him on the phone 3 weeks ago for about 5 seconds and he said everything was arranged and that he had to go.. and since then nothing.. I just feel sick inside, thinking of him, and how i know he WON*T contact me next week. and how sad this all has been for me. Maybe its for the best..

My gut says his W knows something, but don't let him work his way back in when he is away from her and more relaxed. As tempting as this will be to meet up with him, it is a really bad idea. Keep yourself busy and away from him. Someday you will be glad you did.
JMHO
I say you did the right thing by ending it for good. Just let it go. It isn't worth the trouble you have been going through wondering and waiting. And besides, do we have the right to expect any differently in an A? When you are in an A you pretty much are setting yourself up to get crumbs, then when we get the crumbs we don't like it. It just sounds to me like this man is more trouble then what he is worth. He just wanted to set up a mistress for his business trip. Follow your instincts and end this thing for good.
Jazzdiva
I want something and deserve someone that wants to play all the time- we all do. We all deserve the attention we crave, and its a horrible desperate place to be wanting and needing and craving someone that although wants it, is too lazy or doesnt care enough to do something about... jerk.. thanks for the imput..