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so much better but still struggling
| Thu, 10-07-2010 - 1:21pm |
Ok... here goes:
Yesterday I found out my mother has cancer.
| Thu, 10-07-2010 - 1:21pm |
Ok... here goes:
Yesterday I found out my mother has cancer.
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Dee, I am SO sorry. My thoughts and prayers are with you. I thankful for the timing for you as well. I used to think to myself all the time that I needed to get myself out of my situation because if something tragic did happen, I would be a complete mess. You have strength that you probably don't even realize yet. As far as the 5.5% - I'm still struggling at about 45%, so consider yourself lucky. I guess it's like a "phantom limb" - even though it's not there any more, we still have a strange feeling of connection to it. We're all here for you :)
Bodhi
Big ((Hug)) Dee!
I wanted to say to you I am really sorry to hear about your Mom.
Dee,
Sending you hugs, love, strength and prayers. I’m glad you reached out to the community for support. We well be here for ya sis-ta!
So as far as the numbers go, let’s see that means 94.5% of your time is focused on Dee related issues. Hey from a fellow ADDer that is some pretty darn good percentages!
Thanks to CM Tasha 50% of my morning was focused on chocolate. I think she sent hidden subliminal messages in her posts.
Much love and big hugs,
E1
Whether you think you can or you think you can’t you are probably right.
Whether you think you can or you think you can't you are probably right. A parrot can repeat what it has learned but the mark of true intelligence is applying what is learned.
Big hugs to you Dee.
I'll be thinking of you and your mom. Stay strong for your sweet mom.
keep us posted, ok?
Dee,
I am so sorry to hear about your mother.
Ohhhhh Dee I am so sorry to hear about your mom - my prayers and thoughts are with you and your family....I know it isn't easy.
You sound very strong and so positive and that is great! You have to do your best to stay positive when feeling so down and discouraged (this is how I've felt today, so sad and prolly the worst I've felt in quite a while re XAP).
Keep on stayin positive and keep that chin up and keep thanking God!
Hugs
Sending you love and prayers at this difficult time, Dee. I'm short on time but justed wanted to let you know I am thinking of you and your Mom. She really needs you right now so take that small percentage of Xmm fodder and give it the heeve-ho, and give your Mom 100% of your love and strength.
I'd like to echo everyone's words Dee and say that i will send prayers an positive thoughts your way. I know I'm new and don't have much to offer in the way of advice but just wanted to say that you have come so far and are an inspiration to a newbie like me. i know that those thoughts creep in at stressful times like this but you need positivity around you right now and i hope you find the strength and have to support to continue on that positive path, like you have done.
hey Sister,
You're amazing. Your post is just what i needed today. I needed to remember that being present in my life, for those who need me, is so so liberating. There have been so many experiences where I have been 'struck' by the contrast of what it feels like today, compared to what it could have felt like if I was still in my affair. You're going to be there for your mom Dee. YOU ARE GOING TO 'BE' THERE. So, at 11 months out you think about him - pft, whatever. Like Bohdi said, it's that phantom limb reminding you that at some point there was something 'there'. It's refreshing for me to here you're struggling just a little, because as long as we're getting all honest and all, I still think about him 6% of the time. I have cravings to connect - but then, like you, I can't even follow the thought through. It's just a feeling. It passes, and I am so so so grateful that I didn't act, or really even bother going through the motions of imaging it. It feels so good to trust myself enough to know that I won't hurt myself like that again. I am grateful to be far enough out to just recognize that I can be triggered into wanting to connect, but that it won't go further than that, that the feeling will pass, and that I won't bottom out afterwards. So, imagine 11 months out from now. Sh^t Dee, we'll be even more resolved, we be fierce, we'll be so over this all ...
I will be thinking about you so much and sending postive thoughts & energy your way as you support your mom.
Much love,
TU.
Gals,
I have only, literally, two minutes on the board tonight so this has to be so much less of a thank you in writing than I feel in my heart..... thank you. with the deepest love and respect and warmth and gratitude.... thank you.
xoxoxox
dee
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