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| Thu, 05-27-2004 - 10:50am |
Good morning all! I've been feeling pretty crappy all week. I suffer from depression and I'm just having a difficult time getting up and facing the day. I've had to take my son to a series of doctor's appointments ( he suffers from a chronic, progressive illness and requires alot of medical care) and my clients are driving me nuts. I've been in court several times this week and will be leaving for court again for the afternoon in a few minutes.
All that aside, I just wanted to share that I was awake 3 full hours today before I even thought about XMM, and when I did it was just in passing. He's not occupying my thoughts so much as he was in the last few weeks when I was a manic poster and responder, and I think that at least for the time being, I'm making some peace with my new life.
DH and I have alot of fun plans for the weekend. Nothing very special, except that we're going to see Cirque d'Soleil (Allegria) in NY which I'm really looking forward to. Still and all, we've been having a good time together and really getting some healing. So that's all good.
I just wanted to check in and let you all know where I am in my process...
Love, Mo.


Just wanted to send you a note to say that I am glad you are feeling a bit better today. It sounds pretty rough. On a positive note: good for you that you didnt think of OM for 3 hours. that is pretty huge. Allegria is amazing! That should be some good fun for you two.
I have not been in a good place of late. Dont even feel like talking. Just drained.
So I have not been here as much. Not sure why.
Anyway my dear, wanted to send you a big hug and kiss and let you know I am thinking of you through your journey. You have always been a great source of advice and you always appear to be a pilar of strength. You are entitled to a little down time. Now snap out of it and enjoy your weekend!! ;)
XO!!
I wish you all the luck with your son. My little 19 month old girl broke her arm today. What a fiasco that was. She fell down just the right way. It's SOOO sad to see her in a cast.
My OM called tonight at about 11pm and I didn't answer and I have no desire to call him back -at this point. I hope I stay strong about that. I haven't talked to him since my Dear John letter in April. He has called twice since.
I hope you have a wonderful weekend. Don't let that beer drinking, late night calling, mediocre guy bring you down! You are so much better off without the chaos.
Have fun at the show.
During that peak period of magical thinking about the A, I kept asking my higher power for the strength not to give in to the urge to contact him, because on my own power, I'm not sure I could have remained so strong.
I haven't even driven by his house all week, which is a miracle because it's on my regular route...Love, Mo.