Something really wierd just happened
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Something really wierd just happened
| Wed, 05-12-2004 - 2:26pm |
UGH!!!! I just logged off the 'net and went to check my messages and e-mails (I'm in my office) and there was an e-mail that just stopped my heart. Now OMM and I NEVER connected by e-mail so I would not expect to hear from him in that manner. But there was an e-mail and the sender's identity was my OMM's first initial and same last name. Granted, OMM has a very common last name. Fictitious name here, but say OMM's name was Bob Smith, the e-mail was from "B. Smith." Well, it turned out the e-mail was from one of the law clerks handling one of my cases and it wasn't OMM at all. But I'm still trying to process my initial reaction to seeing what I thought was his name in the sender column of my computer: I wanted to jump for freakin' joy. Sigh. Love, Mo.


Amazing how our heart skips a beat at these little things.
Hope it didnt throw you off guard. Very weird though I agree. God playing w/ our minds and a bit huh??
xo!
Mo - I read post that you wrote either today or yesterday about your thoughts on xMM. Good looking, good sex, emotional satisfying, but not there intellectually. Same things ring true for my XMM. I know that we would not have worked out in reality but what is it about all of that that still makes me desire him so much???
I've been very into this metaphysical theory of co-creation - that you manifest your own circumstances by sending energy, either negative or positive, to the object of your thoughts. Like sometimes I'll direct my thoughts toward someone or something in a very positive way, and soon enough I'm "receiving" things that have to do with that person. Like have you ever gotten a phone call from someone you were just thinking about???? That sort of thing. Anyhows, I was wondering if it was my own darned thinking that caused me to receive that e-mail under circumstances that made me think it could have been from OMM. You know????
I went to see Wayne Dyer at the Jacob Javits Center in NYC on Friday night, so I'm probably reading waaaaayyyyyyy to much into that darned e-mail. I'm just kind of falling apart before my own eyes today... Love, Mo.
I mean nearly all of his emails last spring and summer were amazing. Once he emailed me 5 seperate emails one at a time. the first was a string of SSSSSSS. The second was a string of IIIIIIII. The 3rd was a string of Gs; the 4th was a string of Hs and the 5th was a string of exclaimation points--spelling out SIGH!!!!!!! He had just gotten back to his office when he sent that to me after we had spent some time alone at my house, while i was baking my son a birthday cake. When i got the messages, i wrote him back: I Love you, (name). He called me and told me my message had "taken his breath away." There were lots of wonderful doses of that during our email converations.
Then, after the A ended, he sent me one last fall that said: 'I miss you." and another that said: "I wish i could see you."
I don't get any of those types of emails anymore, but sometimes, i just pretend i might and bold his name again so i can only wish for the surprise.
Writing this is making me sad. Gotta go.
Clarice