Soul Searching

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Soul Searching
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Wed, 11-24-2010 - 3:40pm

Hello Everyone,

I wanted

Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart... Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens. I started looking inside and went NC October 15, 2010

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Registered: 10-14-2010
Fri, 11-26-2010 - 8:52pm

Picture please. oohp! Ok. sorry! if you dont want me to picture u in a hot bath...(oh i know...youre still picturing me swingin off of towel racks throwing up too) turnabout...FAIR play! but IM ALL SCATTERED & chaotic now too (holidays) I could use some structure too! I think we outta do a little one day a week - homework style- group therapy online - and weigh in on how we progressed on OUR stuff. PLEASE??!?!?!!? :) ANYONE?!?!?! BUELLER!!!!! We could just do it "right here" call it something cool - EAS BookClub Weekly Gathering on Being EFFED UP! or...how bout this.....HOW TO BE EFFED UP & SURVIVE THE HOLIDAYS?!?!?!? or how about ...the IM TOO MUCH CLUB......
Im too sexxy for an affair?!?!?!? come on!! lets do it!!!! Im a good organizer?!?!? TU is a freaking fantastic leader teacher (see how I just elected you) Luvin - can FUEL THE ENGINE :) I know a FEW MORE OF US HERE...Clarity - Melinda - Dee- Bodhi, Jen, Mom, Always, Renewal

Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart... Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens. I started looking inside and went NC October 15, 2010
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Fri, 11-26-2010 - 8:55pm

OK GREAT!!! OMGYSOHSHSHHSHSHSHSH YOU READ THAT!!!

YES YES YES YES!! I VOTE YES!!!!

See!!! I KNEW! You'd probably have a "folder" with something Groupish - Linear - Pre organized! OHMY! And this might help you put together material for your work Offline too!!!!

ESPECIALLY GOOD TIMING WITH THE HOLIDAYS!!!

Some CONCRETE MEAT & POTATOES for me to GNAW on...instead of that crap meal ive been surviving off of for 3 years!!!

and RIGHT BEFORE NEW YEARS?!?!?!?? With goal orientation in mind...

I say PEFECT!!!

I'll throw in whatever time is necessary to help organize!!!!

Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart... Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens. I started looking inside and went NC October 15, 2010
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Fri, 11-26-2010 - 9:08pm

I would love to have homework other than what I am doing myself - count me in - I need all the help I can get! :)

Bodhi

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Fri, 11-26-2010 - 10:13pm

I'm totally in

Oct. 12, 2010 -- began my personal search and rescue mission.
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Fri, 11-26-2010 - 10:35pm

<< All the things that they are attracted to about is, intimidates them over time. WHY? It's like we are so strong....and then they slowly break us down...HELL, we allow them to...this was what exAP did to me, he build me up, and then slowly but steadily, I eroded.....>> THIS NAILS IT FOR ME, Luvin'. A lot of good it did me to try to validate myself and impress him by who I became. Who's the dumb azz?? Hello, mirror??

Oct. 12, 2010 -- began my personal search and rescue mission.
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Fri, 11-26-2010 - 11:17pm
Wow. This has been very thought provoking for me. Except that it is my H who is intimidated it seems. I have spent almost 25 years taming down who I am (outgoing, fun, friendly, smart) because he doesn't like that about me. Everyone else in my life LOVES my personality, even his entire family. Sadly that's one of the things I liked about xap, he liked me for me. I am in counseling now, visit 2 on Monday, trying to figure out what is broken in me that I would seek to fill the void outside of my marriage. But in reading this I do think this is part of it. I have told H that he doesn't even like my personality and he has not disputed that. Thanks for this thread! Very enlightening. I am doing well on day 5 of NC and still sad at times but FREE!!! And no wondering yesterday on TGiving whether I would hear from him because I KNEW I would not! The peace that comes with block and walk...thank you thank you to all of you!
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Sat, 11-27-2010 - 5:37am

oh my garsh!!! Hi!!!!

are you coming out of lurking??

Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart... Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens. I started looking inside and went NC October 15, 2010

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