Staying the course
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| Wed, 01-23-2013 - 11:32pm |
Things have been going so well. NC initiated by me 1/8/13 and all was quiet. Until tonight. I'm not sure how, but he got my new # and has been texting. I had prepared myself for this, as he's pretty resourceful when he wants to be.
I've blocked every # that he has used so far and deleted. But, it's been hard. I just wanted to look forward and not deal with this anymore. I will not reply because that's what he wants. There is nothing left to say to him.
After telling him point blank do not contact me in any way, this feels like a violation of my privacy and just disrespectful. I'm not sure why I expected anymore from him.
I'm not going back into this endless circle of hurt and anger. It will always result in the same ending.
Going to stay the course and not reply. Not now, not ever. I want my self respect back. I want to feel safe. This is the only way.
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It takes fortitude and determination, to maintain NC when he is determined like that.
Be forewarned, this is a fight for your life. He plays it like a game, but you are really fighting for your life to get out of this. Many newbies think of it as a compliment that AP is showing interest. What a mistake. What a fantasy!! That thinking keeps them involved.
Keep the course. Nothing wrong with it at all. It is the right thing. You have the right words. If your true feelings match you are in good shape.
It's tough to reject, and to be rejected, when we hang onto the fantasy. The ending of all A's are about rejection sooner or later. And fantasy.
Keep the course. We are all pulling for you.
Rather....
We only miss what could have been. I know I don't miss what it really was.