Still confusing after all this time.....

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Registered: 03-05-2003
Still confusing after all this time.....
Wed, 07-21-2004 - 1:22pm
I have been thinking about OM alot lately. Everyday my heart breaks over this mess that I allowed to happen. The "if only's " drive me half crazy. I was thinking today though that my OM may actually be an MM or a taken man. Two months ago I received an e-mail from him about his love for me (never said that when we were together), that he wanted to do this right and work through things together and things like that. But there are so many things that don't make sense. His sporadic e-mails, that he went on a cruise with "friends", that I never had his home phone number, that he would break plans all the time and couldn't keep the reasons he gave me straight. He was always secretive about where he was, I could never just stop in. He was always going away on business trips that would keep him away over the weekends, when he was not on one of these trips his weekends were taken with trips with his parents. I just wish I knew what was going on with him. I can't go down the same path with him again, but I would love to have this mystery solved. I know that his house is up for sale (no I'm not stalking him...lol....I saw it in a real estate guide). It's just a strange situation. All the grief he gave me about fence sitting would really prove him to be a hypocrite if my suspisions are right.

Sorry to vent......can't help it sometimes.....!!

Hope you are all finding the peace that you deserve!!!!

Karry

Karry - - who is learning to embrace life on her own raising her miracle, Carley Paige