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| Wed, 01-19-2011 - 1:48pm |
:smileyhappy:Hello everyone,
Just wanted to check in and see how everyone's doing. Tomorrow marks 2 wks NC for me. I still have my weak moments and when those arise, I focus on what I've been blessed with. It feels good to live and experience each moment, especially those moments with my family. Where I used to be a zombie with my mind running a million miles an hour, I can now feel and experience the laughter and love that my children and husband show on a daily basis. I find myself in moments where I'm staring at my kiddos, like my daughter twirling around the kitchen pretending she's a princess and my son making the most random and funny statements, and just realizing, my gosh. This is all I need. I have everything right here. Right in this moment.
I had lunch today with my husband and as we were chatting he tells me that this little boy had fallen down and points in the direction which it happened. So I turn and look and caught myself staring and realized, oh my gosh, its xap's sister, mother and nephew? So I turn around and continue on with lunch, hoping they didn't see me. But if they do, oh well. Doesn't mean anything anyways. So I saw them. They may have seen me. Life goes on. The old fogged up me would've jumped at the chance to email or text xap and find out if the child who was hurt was ok. But this is now. And they're none of my concern. I wish them the best and hope the child's ok, but I'm not going down that dark pathway anymore. No way. No how.
So here's to wishing everyone a wonderful day. Keep your heads up and keep on keepin' on. We can do this. One day, one hour, one minute, one step at a time.
WU

Keep up the good work. I am glad to see that you are still here, there was a wave of fresh blood just after the new year, but sadly most seemed to have been hit and run. :(
You keep on trucking your self.
Sending strong and calming vibes your way this day.
peace&light
Foggy
Waking up, I'm so happy for you.
Yes, I know how we can miss life rolling in front of our eyes when we are caught up in the A fog.
Hey,
Im 14 days NC too. Certainly app what I have and I dont miss the fog nor the sneaking. Focusing on family and me this year and cant make everyone else happy. Congrats and heep us updated.
Glad you are still around WU. Before you know it, 2 weeks will be 2 months. Nothing beats fully experiencing the life we tend to take for granted.
Bodhi
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Absolutely. We missed so much when our heads were all fogged up. I cherish the moments I get to spend with my kids and grand kids now.
Whoever that person was way back then,* I'm referring to myself now,* was someone who was not only lost, but didn't want anyone looking for her either. Pretty darn pathetic if you ask me.
Keep on, keeping on. You are doing great and thanks for checking in.
((Hugs))
Thank you all so very much for your kind words and support. I couldn't have done it without God and all of