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| Fri, 02-18-2005 - 5:04pm |
Hi I posted yesterday under a different name. Had to change it, fearing hubby would ever see where I've been.
I saw him (OM) today at work. I didn't say anything to him, but looked at him. I know he could see that I was sad. He looked back once more at me. i'm not mad at him, I hope he knows that. But I'm just trying to break the ties. Meaning the emails. Ther is nothing I can do about work. Like I've said we never had a physical relationship. Although we both are attracted to each other. This has been going on almost a year now. Him being the one holding back because he actually has morals and values. Can you belive it. A man who had every oppertunity to be with me but has enough willpower not to. Because of what he believes in. One night he told me in a email of course. That "I wanted to see you but you just looked too good, I don't think I could have behaved myself" I had went to see him at work to try to get him to go out with me. But he wouldn't . I think thats what makes me want him even more. Why is it that every one here says its not love. If its not love, (for me that is). Than what the heck is it???? I want to know?? I feel that I care very deeply for him. And I try not to think about him leaving the workplace, cause it makes me cry. I just had to get something out. I don't have to see him till sunday and monday I work with him. He is a very sweet man. and has never said an unkind word to me. I posted yesterday under (debdeb1963)
I saw him (OM) today at work. I didn't say anything to him, but looked at him. I know he could see that I was sad. He looked back once more at me. i'm not mad at him, I hope he knows that. But I'm just trying to break the ties. Meaning the emails. Ther is nothing I can do about work. Like I've said we never had a physical relationship. Although we both are attracted to each other. This has been going on almost a year now. Him being the one holding back because he actually has morals and values. Can you belive it. A man who had every oppertunity to be with me but has enough willpower not to. Because of what he believes in. One night he told me in a email of course. That "I wanted to see you but you just looked too good, I don't think I could have behaved myself" I had went to see him at work to try to get him to go out with me. But he wouldn't . I think thats what makes me want him even more. Why is it that every one here says its not love. If its not love, (for me that is). Than what the heck is it???? I want to know?? I feel that I care very deeply for him. And I try not to think about him leaving the workplace, cause it makes me cry. I just had to get something out. I don't have to see him till sunday and monday I work with him. He is a very sweet man. and has never said an unkind word to me. I posted yesterday under (debdeb1963)
