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| Fri, 11-26-2004 - 6:27pm |
Well if you've been keeping up with my posts lately, you will know that I talked to xMM yesterday morning. (Is he really X at this point?) Anyway, so far, that is the last I've heard from him. I'm sure him and his W are probably still going at it, her wanting to work it out, him not wanting to. Only now I'm at the point where I think if he was planning to leave, he would've done it by now. She knows about us, she knows he's in love with me, what reason would he still be there if he was planning to leave? I know it's hard for him to contact me as I'm sure she hasn't left his side and probably won't until Monday when he goes back to work, and I know he would if he could, even to tell me he decided to stay. He hasn't even left me an e-mail in the middle of the night. But I also know she isn't sleeping well these days so he's probably afraid to with the computer in their bedroom. I am prepared for the worst when that phone call comes. He has tried to leave her 2 other times (before she knew about our A) but he chickened out both times. If he chickens out this time I know there is no hope left to be had. The circumstances won't be any different in a month or 6 months from now when he tries to leave again. He'd chicken out then too. For now, until I hear otherwise, I'm still hoping he has chosen me. (pretty slim chance since he's not here yet.) But if not, I will give you all permission to leave me a huge thread of posts saying.... I TOLD YOU SO YOU STUPID FOOL!!!! Can anyone give me any words of encouragement at all, or is this situation starting to look too bleak??? (haven't heard from him since yesterday at 10 am when he told me not to make plans cuz he's leaving.)

Pal
I feel for you....walking on broken glass (annie lennox) waiting to hear what HE decides...if he has the courage to leave...if he loves you enough. THIS SUCKS!!! I am in the same boat...he is waiting to hear from her if she is willing to try reconciliation. ARRGGG!!!
I am reading "This Affair is Over", right now and your post brought to mind this quote:
There's a difference between interest and commitment.
When you're interested in doing something,
you do it only when it is convenient.
When you're committed to something,
you accept no excuses;only results.
Right now our xMM are interested in being with us, but have not shown any commitment.
My xMM told his wife, moved out, asked for a divorce then reality of missing the kids caused him to want to reconcile with W. INTEREST IN A FUTURE WITH ME, BUT NO COMMITMENT.
I have told him NC until he is committed to a future with me and it is over with her. I am scared as hell to lose him, but if he never comes back...what have I really lost?? He didn't love me enough to put me first and I would NEVER be content with that.
Hope
Pal
I would like to be able to encourage you but I don't know what to say, other then I am following your posts and will be here when you have had enough of this.
((((GREAT BIG HUGS))))
Free
Hope
Great quote!
Good luck to both you and Pal
Brai
Pal,
Id never tell you I told you so even if it what you needed to hear because I am back in the middle of my rollercoaster ride. All I can do is wish you the very best of luck, an if you need to talk you are welcome to emial me anytime.. I am staying off boards mostly I feel quite uncomfortable here..krm_one @ hotmail .. take care and best of luck to you ido hope you get what you want out of this ...
Krm
KRM,
Thank you for your reply, and I wish you the best of luck on your rollercoaster ride! I think I'll just stay on this board since I don't see my situation going much further. When you decide to return, we will be here for you!!! Thanks for being here for me!!!
PAL