Still Really Feeling Good

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Registered: 07-25-2003
Still Really Feeling Good
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Sat, 05-22-2004 - 4:28pm
apparently the confrontation i had with xMM was what i needed. I feel SO STRONG. Yes, i've had fleeting moments where i felt guilty or bad--but those times are fleeting--and i know i did the right thing.

Each of our processes is different. What i did won't work for everyone--or perhaps is not necessary. But for me it was.

The one downside, is like iknowitstime, my cousin, the T, wrote me an email. She strongly disagrees with what i did and has put it out there that she doesn't want to go to Europe with me (in one month) if i talk about xMM. She wrote: I'm done with this. I'm tired of it. It's your choice. But i can't go to Europe if you are going to talk about this anymore.

Well, that hurt (i am even paying for her trip), but i have to respect that. She believes, as iknowitstime did, that i put this confrontation out there as only a way to reconnect with xMM and start the A over again. In fact, the confrontation has done the opposite. xMM's tendencies are to run for cover when things get tough, so i am sure this was all too much for him and don't believe we will have contact anymore after little league ends. I AM OK WITH THAT! I really really needed this closure.

I know that my cousin doesn't trust me anymore--and i can understand that.

I am feeling good, strong, clear-headed and focused. I am happy--and have been now for a few days. It really feels great for me.

Clarice

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Registered: 04-29-2004
Sun, 05-23-2004 - 11:30am
you go girl!! Be an inspiration to all of us who r dealing with this right now!! :) (especially in the beginning stages)