Still struggling....

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Registered: 03-26-2003
Still struggling....
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Mon, 09-13-2004 - 10:43am
There have been several phases to this break-up. I initiated NC 3-1-04, but ex-MM would call weekly leaving voice messages on my cell phone. Then we moved to limited contact. As of Aug 26, ex-MM has finally realized I serious and has quite calling me.

What has that done to me? It's made me realize that this is really over. He's moved on with his life whatever that may be. But, the hurt is still there for me. It's not as bad. Now, that I don't have those intese feelings I can see things more clearly. I can't belive that I let him play me like a fool for all those years. Telling me just what I wanted to hear.

Looking back on our relationship I should hate him...but I don't. I still cry sometimes when I think of how he treated me. It's time for me to really, really, lay this down, put to rest and go on with my life.

I'm trying, little by little, everyday is a little better. After 17 years, it's really over.

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Registered: 06-28-2004
Mon, 09-13-2004 - 11:24am
Hugs, Secret.

I know you are in such pain, but you are doing the right thing. You must be so strong! Keep that strength and build on it- remember that you were not treated like you deserve, and you chose to do something about it. You are honoring yourself at last. There will be weak moments for all of us...just know that you will get through it, and come out even stronger. it hurts, but look at your progress. You are healing.

My thoughts are with you today!

Love, Lily

Love, Lily PG with #1 EDD 11/23 baby