I am new to this site and this is my first post.
I am sorry you are still struggling after 5 months, but this is very common. For some of us it took years to get over an AP. I hope you are reading our Healing Library and garnering strength from those who have walked in your shoes. Doing the right thing is not always easy, especially after we have been doing the wrong thing and having to face consequences because of it. I hope someday you will find peace with having to let her go.
Welcome to our community,
Andy, welcome to the board. Five months is still very fresh out and unfortunately there is no magic solution that will fix how you are feeling. Time and focussing on your healing is the key to at least feeling like there is light at the end of the tunnel. Worthmore (that is an awesome name for this board btw worthmore) had some great tips about the healing library. It is true about what she is saying in regards to your story being similar to many others and it can give you hope when you read their success stories. Please hang around and just keep sharing with people who can help support you as you find your way out of the pain.
Welcome to our board.
I really am staying for my kids and to try and honor my commitment to my marriage.