Strength and Guidance

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Strength and Guidance
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Mon, 10-11-2010 - 12:26pm

I posted on nolove4me's thread that I've had a bit of a rough patch this past week. I am a pretty tough cookie and tend to not turn to anyone for help of any kind when I'm down. EAS and my cyber buddies have been my saving grace. The main thing getting me so down is the fallout from my A, but it's also making every single other thing in my life hard to deal with as well. I'm self employed. I have a huge house and my business building to take care of as well as two teenagers. I was sick as a dog last week which didn't help. I lost it this morning and literally called my mommy and asked if I could come over. I sobbed in her arms and told her I was just struggling to handle everything in my life (leaving out the part that I'm struggling the most with). It helped a lot to just cry with someone else instead of alone.

I wanted to share the "emergency card" she gave me. Whatever you believe in - God, Buddha, Allah, the Fonz... use this:

I need your help with this.

Thank you for this situation, for what you will do with it and the good that will ultimately come from it. I also thank you for your strength, for your grace, for showing me how to live, for showing me the truth, for your forgiveness, and for your unconditional love. Please show me your purpose in this. What is your will? What do you want accomplished? Please show me what to do right now.

Bodhi

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Mon, 10-11-2010 - 12:56pm

Honey, I just want to offer you some hugs and warm fuzzies. As strong as we are or appear to be, we are still only human and can become overwhelmed, especially when we aren't feeling well. You are blessed that you still have your mom's arms to hold you. I am sorry you weren't feeling well last week and hope you are now on the mend.

Thanks for sharing your "Emergency card." I always turn to prayer when I need help, and it's always makes me feel better too.:smileyhappy:

Love and hugs,

Be where you are; otherwise you will miss your life. ~ Buddha
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Mon, 10-11-2010 - 1:22pm
hi bodes looks like we r up sh@t creek together....i only have my mobile with me staying at friends house ...glad u had a good cry with yr mum...wish mine was in the same country ...i feel numb right now..but am reading yr emergency card and sending you hugs lots of them ....
NC x

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Mon, 10-11-2010 - 1:23pm

NC - I stopped in my office quickly before a meeting - keep reading my mom's card and I'll email you as soon as I can. Love you.

Bodhi

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Mon, 10-11-2010 - 1:41pm

Bodhi,

So sorry you are so upset.

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Mon, 10-11-2010 - 3:03pm

Oh, Body!

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Mon, 10-11-2010 - 3:25pm
sh&t why do i have to follow Dee?! My reply will not top her's but I wanted to add my hugs ((Bohdi)). I have had a couple of tough weeks too - much be the transition time in the seasons. I feel overwhelmed by the demands in my life, and sometimes really think this isn't living at all. It's just passing time. However, at least I am here putting energy into my RL. The consequences of being in, and ending the affair have been far reaching and loooong lasting. Everything 'normal' feels harder to carry because I am worn out from just trying to repair the damage. Time to reflect on our true blessings: relative health for our families - homes, cars, an income. YKWIM? Life really isn't all that bad - it's just hard. We can do hard when we have all that going for us; especially moms that will take us into our arms. That's a real blessing. That's forever kinda love.

((hugs))

TU.
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Mon, 10-11-2010 - 4:54pm

I guess there isn't a way to respond to an individual poster anymore?

So, Iddy, NC, Nolove, Dee and TU - thank you so much for your support. When the walls seem to be caving in, reading here always helps put things into perspective. NC, I emailed you - I hope you are currently getting some much needed sleep over there. Your d-day has reminded me that I need to continue to be thankful that I didn't have one on my end, or endure that fallout from one on XAP's end. Nolove - I'm glad you are viewing this change as a gift - it really is.

Dee - I'll hijack my own post and tell you I'm so sorry about your shoes! I am so thankful for ALL that I have - even the "work" that comes with it. I can take on a LOT, but man, today it just came to a head.

I have a very hard time with the season changes also TU. It seems like they have been a "marker" for me over the past 7.5 years - it's easy to say "next fall things will be different" and when "next fall" arrives and you are worse off than you were before it starts to get you down. I'm sorry you've had some tough weeks too. I completely agree about feeling like you are just passing time. I want to get to the point where I'm not just trying to "get through" each day. I've learned today that I need to continue to readjust my thoughts and priorities.

Thanks again (((everyone)))

Bodhi

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Mon, 10-11-2010 - 5:09pm

Bodhi,

I too feel like I am just passing time and

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Mon, 10-11-2010 - 5:20pm

Nolove-

You're right, not "if" you get caught but "when". And I was living on borrowed time in that regard for a long, long time. I still don't know how it never happend in 7.5 years, but I'm very thankful. I hope that your XAP lets everything go as well.

We'll just keep moving forward.

Bodhi

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Mon, 10-11-2010 - 8:06pm

Dear Bodhi,

Sending you big hugs.

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