Strength and Guidance

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Registered: 06-17-2010
Strength and Guidance
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Mon, 10-11-2010 - 12:26pm

I posted on nolove4me's thread that I've had a bit of a rough patch this past week. I am a pretty tough cookie and tend to not turn to anyone for help of any kind when I'm down. EAS and my cyber buddies have been my saving grace. The main thing getting me so down is the fallout from my A, but it's also making every single other thing in my life hard to deal with as well. I'm self employed. I have a huge house and my business building to take care of as well as two teenagers. I was sick as a dog last week which didn't help. I lost it this morning and literally called my mommy and asked if I could come over. I sobbed in her arms and told her I was just struggling to handle everything in my life (leaving out the part that I'm struggling the most with). It helped a lot to just cry with someone else instead of alone.

I wanted to share the "emergency card" she gave me. Whatever you believe in - God, Buddha, Allah, the Fonz... use this:

I need your help with this.

Thank you for this situation, for what you will do with it and the good that will ultimately come from it. I also thank you for your strength, for your grace, for showing me how to live, for showing me the truth, for your forgiveness, and for your unconditional love. Please show me your purpose in this. What is your will? What do you want accomplished? Please show me what to do right now.

Bodhi

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Registered: 04-11-2010
Tue, 10-12-2010 - 8:05am

Bodhi, Bodhi, Bodhi

You are a bloody inspiration mate! Let yourself have a cry. Eat chocolate sweety! Give yourself the love you deserve in these crap days- God knows we all have them.

You are what you consistently do
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Registered: 06-15-2006
Tue, 10-12-2010 - 9:21am

"I am a pretty tough cookie and tend to not turn to anyone for help of any kind when I'm down"

A better self-awareness might be in order here.

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Registered: 08-10-2010
Tue, 10-12-2010 - 11:03am

Bodhi, I am sending you big hugs and kisses... You are a strong woman

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Registered: 01-18-2010
Thu, 10-14-2010 - 8:37am

Bodhi,

How are you lady. I just read your post. I been MIA as of late and I am trying to check in with all my ladies...hang in there and please know although you have not heard from me, I am thinking of ya and wishing you the best....missed ya was wondering about you and those teens!! Hope all is well/better!! Let me know.

Luvin
Yo Soy EL Capitan de Mi Vida
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Registered: 06-17-2010
Thu, 10-14-2010 - 9:25am

Thanks (((Luvin))) :)

Feeling better and somewhat back in control. It's all about our attitude. Most of the time I know that I can handle everything, but there are times when I break down. It's when I break down that the XAP fog rolls in. And I start that snowball effect of blame and resentment. Good lessons being learned! :) And a lesson I wasn't even asking for - don't leave your designer shoes on the floor with your poochie around!!

Bodhi

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