Struggling. I MISS HIM. Ugh.

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Registered: 10-04-2009
Struggling. I MISS HIM. Ugh.
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Mon, 02-08-2010 - 1:06pm

*Sigh*

NC since October 2, 2009.

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iVillage Member
Registered: 01-01-2008
Mon, 02-08-2010 - 1:15pm

gosh, i wish i could help you in some way, gal.....i feel exactly the same way.

iVillage Member
Registered: 10-04-2009
Mon, 02-08-2010 - 1:29pm

Thanks, Buddy.

NC since October 2, 2009.

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iVillage Member
Registered: 12-07-2009
Mon, 02-08-2010 - 1:49pm

Gal,

What you are experiencing is the finality of it all. Sometimes it takes much longer for it to hit, but your heart is realizing it is over for good this time, which is making you want to hold onto that last shred of hope...

It is a sad feeling, and one of those reality checks that kick us in the gut harder than others do, but nevertheless it is like a big black cloud following us around. BUT IT WILL PASS. Just hang in there, honey. Winter, no more holidays till May, and mind drifting can turn any day into one you want over with ASAP.

((Hugs))

~ Iddy~

   ~Iddy~ 


iVillage Member
Registered: 01-10-2010
Mon, 02-08-2010 - 1:58pm

I'm day 14 NC and I have been struggling the past few days as well.

Imustenjoypain!
iVillage Member
Registered: 12-07-2009
Mon, 02-08-2010 - 2:07pm

I agree that there is something in the air )-:

I am struggling too - breath by breath - moment to moment, I just want to get to the next break in the craving and I know that I will soon, and I know that I'll feel stronger and clearer again. At least now, I have moments of feeling stronger and better to think back on, to remind myself that it has been dark, really dark, and I have pulled through it - and that I/you will again.

That's what I am telling myself. And in regards to V-day. I am celebrating that this year I won't have to have pains of wishing we were spending the day together, wondering if she received more 'love' than I did etc ... I am celebrating Loving myself more this V-day than settling and selling out.

Well --- that's me. We're in this together and we'll get out of this together ... some sooner than later, but there's no going back my fierce and amazing board members.

Yup I miss him, but I miss me more.

iVillage Member
Registered: 09-10-2008
Mon, 02-08-2010 - 2:07pm

Gal,


I'm right there struggling to maintain NC like you.

iVillage Member
Registered: 10-25-2009
Mon, 02-08-2010 - 2:18pm

Struggling here too!

iVillage Member
Registered: 10-20-2009
Mon, 02-08-2010 - 2:39pm

Gal, you have a done a teriffic job so far in your NC journey.

BE the change that you want to see in the world! Life loves me and I love life! <3
iVillage Member
Registered: 01-01-2008
Mon, 02-08-2010 - 2:54pm
I didn't ignore it completely.
iVillage Member
Registered: 10-04-2009
Mon, 02-08-2010 - 5:39pm

All -


I cannot thank you enough for all of your kind words and support today. I really needed it.

NC since October 2, 2009.

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