Stupid move.. broke NC
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Stupid move.. broke NC
| Thu, 09-23-2010 - 2:38pm |
So I was doing good. would have been 3 mths NC end of this mth but I got drunk and emailed him more then once. I was going to txt him , which is what i normaly would do , but i thought email instead because it wasnt immediate contact. I didnt expect him to write back or acknowledge it . Im probably blocked any way or he totally delteted it . Maybe thats another reason I chose e mail . Any way . I dont know . I was feeling sorry and lonely and really really missing him. More then usual. and i just hit send from my phone and off it went. then next moring i appoligized for it.

Okay...now say 5 Hail Clarity's,
tsth,
step away from the bottle! drinking and emailing.... oh, never good. never. If you drink to the point that you are doing stupid things, the first stupid thing done is to drink at all.
Good luck reestablishing your footing.
Best,
Dee
I am so grateful to you for sharing this. It is exactly how I would be feeling now if I had sent the message last night to XAP that I so badly wanted to send. I know I would have got the same lack of response you did.
Phones from which you can send e-mail are really terrible. It just makes slipping up too easy. Next time you drink, get a friend to hang on to your phone!
You can do it. And I don't think you are back to square one. In square one, you didn't know how awful you would feel if you broke NC, so there was always the niggling hope that maybe it would be okay to do it. But now you know. And you have learned. That, my friend, is at LEAST square seven!
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I love this!!!!! Thank you xx