You aren't alone...you've got us!! :o) Those first couple weeks are BRUTAL!!! but it will get better...you just have to know that! Please hang in there and come here for support...I don't think I had to tell you that, because you already did it :o)
I thought I would never feel normal again after "losing" my xap. But, I do...and I have for a while now. I'm 2+ months post-a. The sky is blue again. I can hear the birds chirping outside my window (OK, a little dramatic) but my point is, things DO get back to normal, even though it doesn't feel like it will....ever.....get back....to normal....................again.
Sooooo need to hear that right now! I am 18 days NC today and while I've had a few 'peaceful' hours (including some wonderful times with my beautiful husband) alot of the time has been spent dealing with so many feelings, depression, digging up old old stuff with my IC, fighting those feelings, trying to forget about xAP, dealing with the fact that I will never, ever have him in my life again etc etc etc.
Just hearing that you are experiencing lots of 'feeling normal' moments at 2+ months post a, and have for a little while, is so promising and I'm so looking forward to feeling those feelings too. My H and I are doing really well considering, and I'm feeling a different sort of 'love' for him than I have ever felt before (apparently I have always had trouble giving and receiving real and true 'love'...goes back a long way but am determined to work on it and deal with it once and for all this time). So I am feeling hopeful regarding my M and R with my husband.
It's just the 'getting through each hour/day' that can be so exhausting. Trying to be as positive as I can though, and after reading your post I have been given some new hope....again :) thank you.
You are not alone....we all have been where you are, some of us are still there. I am out of my A now for over a year. My xMM and I
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You feel alone at work but you are not alone here!
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You aren't alone...you've got us!! :o) Those first couple weeks are BRUTAL!!! but it will get better...you just have to know that! Please hang in there and come here for support...I don't think I had to tell you that, because you already did it :o)
I thought I would never feel normal again after "losing" my xap. But, I do...and I have for a while now. I'm 2+ months post-a. The sky is blue again. I can hear the birds chirping outside my window (OK, a little dramatic) but my point is, things DO get back to normal, even though it doesn't feel like it will....ever.....get back....to normal....................again.
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Sooooo need to hear that right now! I am 18 days NC today and while I've had a few 'peaceful' hours (including some wonderful times with my beautiful husband) alot of the time has been spent dealing with so many feelings, depression, digging up old old stuff with my IC, fighting those feelings, trying to forget about xAP, dealing with the fact that I will never, ever have him in my life again etc etc etc.
Just hearing that you are experiencing lots of 'feeling normal' moments at 2+ months post a, and have for a little while, is so promising and I'm so looking forward to feeling those feelings too. My H and I are doing really well considering, and I'm feeling a different sort of 'love' for him than I have ever felt before (apparently I have always had trouble giving and receiving real and true 'love'...goes back a long way but am determined to work on it and deal with it once and for all this time). So I am feeling hopeful regarding my M and R with my husband.
It's just the 'getting through each hour/day' that can be so exhausting. Trying to be as positive as I can though, and after reading your post I have been given some new hope....again :) thank you.