T0: CL-Noregretsever

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Registered: 10-02-2003
T0: CL-Noregretsever
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Tue, 11-02-2004 - 4:41pm
Thanks for all of your help and I hope that I haven't nagged you too much with all of my questions. I just love OM/SM(whatever he is) so much and I know that he is the one for me. I have always known this. He has always had my heart. I just wish now that I had divorced sooner because now OM has a girlfriend. I am so afraid that I will not end up with him. It is a fear that I am going to have to somehow overcome. I have preached to him for the last 6 years about how much I love him. I know that he believes me, but I am sure that the last 3 years that he has been divorced, he has probably wondered how I can love him so much and be married to someone else. I loved OM, but was very afraid to leave my marriage. I had been married for 24 years(since I was 18), have 3 kids, and I had never been on my own. I always tried to express this fear to OM. I know he probably understood, but he probably got tired of hearing it to. I would always tell him that he was "the love of my life, the apple of my eye". I always told him that he was "the one" and I meant it, but fear always got in the way when I would get ready to leave my marriage. It actually took OM getting a girlfriend to make me get up off my a$$ and leave my marriage. Somehow when I saw him with a girlfriend, something snapped in me and I ended my marriage. I know he thought that I would never do it, and when I did he was surprised. He hasn't said much during all of this process, except asking me a couple of times when would it be final. That is all that he has ever said. He has basically stayed out of the way and told me that he didn't want to get mixed up in my divorce. Now all I can do is wait and see what he does. I love him dearly. He is definitely "THE ONE". Keep me in your prayers and keep your fingers and toes crossed for me. I want to be with him and I hope that God will grant me this wish. I will take the good and the bad that goes with OM. I love him. HE'S THE ONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Registered: 03-25-2003
Thu, 11-04-2004 - 7:54am

You're welcome. And, no, you're not a nag....you're a person trying to get through life, same as all of us here on the board.


I hope that your wish comes true. Having experienced firsthand a life with my XOW, it is what I had hoped for. And the calming ripple effect of being at emotional peace is profound in its subtlety.


Good luck and I will keep you in my prayers as I do all other posters here on the board,


cl-nre