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| Sat, 03-05-2005 - 10:19am |
to my "old" friends here that reply to my post.
This weekend, is the first time my boys will stay at their dad's new house. I have to say, i woke up this morning and it feels strange--so quiet--and i suddenly have the entire day to myself. That feels good and scary all at once. This is just another new thing in my life i must get through. I don't doubt or regret my decision to separate from my H. I know--and have known for a long time--that this would be the conclusion.
I am sad and sickened that while i have changed so many things for the better, i remain in this all too familiar pattern--now my second time-- of being in an A with a married man. I have opened the door for my life to improve. Why would i want to remain in this A with someone i can't talk to when i want; hold and be with in the night? Only steal an hour or two here and there to be together. I know in time this will end too and i will open myself, finally, to a healthy relationship. I just need more time.
Thank you again to maybekatie, noregretswhatsoever, dipss and chris. Katie: everytime Barenaked Ladies pops up on my ipod, i still, still, think of sweet you.
xoxoxo
Clarice

Welcome to the start of your peaceful life, Clarice......Emotional peace is a wonderful foundation for daily living as you are soon to learn.........
cl-nre