I just started posting a little over a week ago, and I read the new post every day. I have been NC since the very first post- and the responses I got helped me start- the ones since, and some of the historical perspective have kept me NC- hard as it is. I love this post because it resonates with exactly how I feel. I sturggle with a feeling of numbness, not belonging, feeling lost and disconnected- and feeling as if just on the edge of all that is a fragile peace I can hold on to- at least it is honest ven if it is painful. I am on a business trip this week- back in the place we spent so much time together- I can barely concentrate on what I need to do- I can't wait to get home to what feels like a "safer" place. The last time we talked was a month ago today- a few emails, a few texts- and I just stopped. It feels done and unfinished at the same time- but I am working through that- and it is easier because of all of you.
I think we all accept things at a different pace. We grasp things differently as is typical of us all being different.
We would all like to rush our healing but............it just doesn't work that way.
Commitment is a consistent thread that we all have to have, but we all handle it differently.
From your latest posts, it looks like you are doing ok, and handling things well.
We all share the same goals, we want it done, we want to be healed, NOW. It just doesn't work that way unfortunately.
Glad to see you still come here occasionally and I think that is one of the things that helps us the most. Getting more of a wide view of the problems that aren't so different for all of us, adopting change into our lives and moving on to a new and hopefully better life.
Hang in there, keep coming and posting.
We only miss what could have been. I know I don't miss what it really was.
I know! All those willing to stick around and pay it forward is really phenomenal.
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