Then, what???/
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Then, what???/
| Thu, 07-01-2004 - 12:31pm |
I've got this obsession to know what is going on in ex-MM's life. I'm dying to know "if" he followed through with his divorce, or "if" he used our breakup to go back home to his family.
So, I ask myself, if I knew then, what? Will me knowing change anything?.....no I don't quite understand why it is so important for me to know this. But, it is almost about to drive me nuts.
I have even thought about calling ex-MM, but I can't even bring myself to do that. I just can't do it.......
I feel like I'm stuck, and don't know what to do.

I think when I'm seeking out the info, that I'm just trying to hold on to a piece of him. And I also think I'm looking in vain for a sign, any kind of a clue, that he might still be thinking about me. I can't think of any other reason I would want to know what's going on with him.
Anyway, long way of saying -- finding the answers to your questions is not going to make anything any easier, in fact it may just do the opposite.
I have to keep reminding myself that what goes on in his life in strictly NONE of my business. His life is his life, and my life is my life, two totally seperate lives.
Thanks for you post