Is there really more than this?
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Is there really more than this?
| Mon, 03-08-2004 - 9:22am |
I keep finding myself wanting to go back to ex-MM. Not, so much because I love him, but because what we had was comfortable. It's not a day that goes by that I don't think about him. I wonder what he is doing. I wonder if he feels as badly as I do. I will admit, until I ended my A, I lost my appreciation for the small things, that ex-MM and I shared. "You never miss your water, til your well runs dry."
I come to the board, and I read all the post. To a certain degree, it makes me sad, to read and feel the pain of the posters.
Is there really more. I feel like my life will always be filled with pain, and turmoil. I couldn't wait to end it......then I did, and I feel like crap. Do I expect to much from life?
I hope everybody is having a wonderful MONDAY.

This is what works for me, but like I said mostly it's time.
Have a great day.
Thanks for responding........
I always try to focus on the positives. I too will be 40 on my next birthday. I have a wonderful family, I'm glad I have my health and a great job that I love, just to name a few. Try it, think about the good things. It does sound like counceling might be a good idea for you. My mother and brother both suffer from depression and the meds really help them. I also have a teenager that has been diagnosed with depression and in the past has been on meds for it. She always lets me know when she's down, since she knows that things can be better than what she is feeling. Also for her, when she's feeling ok, she can go off her meds.
Life is way too short to go through it unhappy. I am a firm believer that everything happens for a reason. I often question what the reason is, eventually the answers come.
I know what the reason was for me having an A. My father cheated and one day up and left my mother, once we were all adults. We were so angry with him for years. My A made me understand my father better and improved our relationship that was tainted for a long time. It made me realize that we do make mistakes and we have to live with that, but there are much worse things in life.
Do what's best for you and seek help from someone who can help you. Good luck.
Edited 3/8/2004 12:04 pm ET ET by alifechoice